::s|-|e/\/g Re/\/x-::

[[no eye deer]]

2006-09-16T12:57:00.000-07:00

[[*no eye deer*]]

jus feel like blogging for some reason... been having holidays budden everyday was fyp session so in short is still sch... as usual fyp sux... a teacher tat dun understand human language i dunno hw shd i communicate wit him... jus another typical old age man tat refuse to listen n tink they r darn good...

hm... for the whole holis tink onli wen out once? lol wit heng actually go PS the pcbunk... lol den call another on9 friend along... so 3 of us? den heng call kok heng his friend tat i oso noe den kok heng call his friend? lol so it getting to a reaili reaili werid combi... first wen there the charge are so ex over there cos promotion was over so we decided to watch a movie... wit someone we met first time live n another gurl tat kok heng friend( friend de friend) we wen to watch "little man".... the show was gary lar... crappy if u call it. quite funny lar nt bad... be4 the start of the show tat on9 friend joe( aka hagam in game) asked if we wan jion him to have dinner at another on9 friend house? lol its sound kinda werid budden well we noe tat gurl on9 too... btw they r all 27yrs old!!! hahas... okay so after the dina we wen to joe house wait for him get changed den wen to cheryl(aka poohisme) house to have dina. At her house she have her friends n friends sisters? lol is like u wit someone u jus see the first time n u wen to mit thier firends n all kinda funny lar luckly we gt 4 ppl mi heng kok heng h kok heng friend ( chew lin). the 4 of us stick together n chat lo cos still quite alot of ppl ba best part was chew lin nvr mit ani of us except kok heng n she follow us all the way hahas. Met the 2 on9 friend tat is reaili good to mi n oso noe a new friend chew lin ^^

hmm...recently been playing games ba n all... o ... yea i have a shirt tat is sooo curse... each time i wear to mit my friend the date is cancel... one by one lol tink abt 4 times or ard there everytime last minute sumting crops up... hmm well might b a blessing in diguse(dunno hw to spell) can wear to avoid ppl oso hahas... read blogS n suddenly have a feeling of slowing down n tink the atomsphere get more serious... idk y too there a feeling tat i feel so diff after reading those blogS... well there are changes all ard changed? change for the better i guess? hahas there are so many friends tat i reaili wish to contact budden dun get the chance... well hw nice n hw well u get to noe someone... reaili depend on hw much tat person intend to let u noe too... same tings... same timing... diff reaction hw would u react is purely hw much u wan to let the person feel diff?

the choice is yrs the pleasure is mine... if u choose to open up i b reaili happi budden if u dun mayb... jus mayb is reaili fate?

[[**]]

2006-09-03T08:27:00.000-07:00

[[**]]

hmm okay been some times since i last blog lazy ba... a... holiday started le mean tat fyp oso started le lo... go sch jus make myself tio fed up i guess go there more n more work seem like is i incharge i dunno what the fuck the teacher is tinking those slacker get the way n seem to b doing wrk n when i rest all rest they follow my resting pace budden when u wrk they dun as well... hmm what u call tis kinda of ppl? simply fed up wit them n cant b bothered oso lar...

a... dunno since wen sumtimes when i tink back i have alot of good friends... reaili there so many ppl tat is nt related to mi by blood budden yet they do thier best to help mi sharing tings wit mi... they r nt forced to budden they help mi...

mayb cos alot of tings to do nwadays kinda dunno or tink of hw i feel oso jus everyday seem to pass so fast... there so much tings to do yet there so little i can b help of... i reaili wan to help u noe... ppl tat i tink they are worth to call as friend i reaili wan to help mayb u dun feel the way i feel abt u oso ba... well i free anitime to ppl tat is friends budden those tat is nt better dun irriate mi lol... quite headless nw stop here ba

[[over]]

2006-08-22T10:43:00.000-07:00

[[*over*]]

today the exam is finally over... since monday paper go jp study den after tat go friend house study cos go home veri far oso sunday try 1 time reach hm 12+ le ar i tink... study at wen han house starting to wait for his family to sleep den his dog hyper active manage to study lar budden he sick den rest abit wake up 7am abit too late budden well i did study lar...

today suddenly tink everyting is all alr over... saw her backview today everyting was still okay... when i look into her eye everyting jus felt different i guess...idk y i jus feel diff...idk dun feel like blogging le end at here first ba other ting other day den sae.

[[s...i...c.....k]]

2006-08-18T11:26:00.000-07:00

[[*s...i...c.....k*]]

been so long since i last blog n it was 2.22am a moment ago time fly!!!... haiz exam coming got a good tatic 3 days 1 paper to study n 1 day to rest end up abt to sick den better den abit wan sick again come n go untill nw =\... gg alot nt yet study i reaili dunno hw to go for exam...ummm... magic? idk

did on9 test tio dc told teacher... she insisted tat i submited... nbm get 89... den recently sae i nt done yet... nid go sch n do when i abt to sick pissed... i so freaking pissed when u ask mi sumting i tell u n u give mi tat attitude tat i lying... in the first place i dun own u ani explaination... u nt even honest wit mi in the first place so farking get out of my life... play game in class tio caught by teacher sae send name tio letter nw... going for interview see if there further actions... he in other class they play badminton nthing happen tio mark-ed...

in the other hand there good tings tat happening as well... someone add mi friendster =]... well my friendster r nt meant for anione in the first place jus tat ppl tat i reaili feel special in diff ways... when i back on9 show mi on9 she come n tok to mi " =] " thou jus a smiling face it make my day someone make the effort to tok to mi. THX... hehe ... recently as in since tat "incident" if u noe what happen lar i realise there alot of nice ppl ard mi reaili... sumtimes when i look at them i reaili see friends =\

aniway recently saw a blog kinda dishearted it reaili make mi feel low when a friend saeing " good to see u having fun .. " thou it might nt sound much n i dunno tat person actually well it make mi sad =\... for "My Fav" i jus feel tis way reaili no other meaning aniway tis suppose to by my thoughts lol...

4 more days n there b magic... wahahah cos exam is finish by den i guess n u see a diff side of mi lol... idk it make my blood boil each time i tink of u... the ^%$# attitude u question mi the way u do yr wrk... piss mi off every minute tat i see u...

[[chimiology]]

2006-08-03T10:52:00.000-07:00

[[*chimiology*]]

been sum time since i last blog another day wit 2hrs of sleep super tired reaction slow... budden today seem veri happening... read blog all like suddenly so enthu update lol... kinda puzzled noe 2 friends each quite nice to each other budden they actually feel diff from what they treat each other... its nice tat they understand each other diff side budden at the same time they both so fake to each other? lol idk...

due to slow reaction 1 ting at a time... today went to sch super tired the bus was like stationary oso dunno y everyting slow... phone rang when i sleep my supervisor called told him caught in jam... he *&^%$#@ as normal n i yea yea yea tired of it... ask mi if my team finish tis n tat ask my team mate tell mi cannot do... wth is tis crap man... reach sch do the tings edit the report... suppose to b friday to b review panel 2 lecturer walk in call our names sae we can start? stun? idk i quite calm ba cos what is nided to do i did le tell them those tat nid to do tell mi cant do? i oso cant do much... after tat went hm reaili tired met my mama at compass point buy prezzie for my papa... get a sekio watch nice lar budden i cant afford 1 le 375 after discount. tis yr ex ba for everyone i guess...

kinda tired nw lol totally feel like lie there motionless lol... btw what will u sae if i sae i love u? what will u reply if i sae i call to hear yr voice? what if i sae i jus wan to see hw u doing? jus random qns budden what standard ans i will get? dun believe! dotz... kinda lost sense of what i typing le stop here ba.

[[tired...]]

2006-07-27T00:47:00.000-07:00

[[*tired...*]]

i am tired reaili reaili tired... first of all tis nt tat kind of post tat sae tired from blah blah blah or what lol... i am reail physcially tired... 12hrs of sleep... in 3 or 4 days if nt wrong nt reaili tat clear minded... my mind cant tink straight nw so if u find mi too quiet is either i fall asleep or... idk what to sae cos scare sae wrong tings hahas...

since yst night i been tinking tat there is alot of ting for mi to tink... budden mayb due to the lack of sleep i getting retard n kip tinking of almost everyting... there alot of tings required my attention i guess n i cant reaili concentrate well...

what happen if u... speak to each other lesser... mit each other lesser... sms each other lesser ... call each other lesser... end up it jus slowly fade away??? idk hw to tok to someone tat i cant trust animore and idk hw to stay even kip quiet wit someone like tis there... guess the feeling of good friends or tere a term to describe closer ppl tat slowly fade away it owaes make mi low...

idk i been tinking more n more evil... i owaes have those crappy ideas where we take out to joke budden recently those wild thoughts is getting more n more arghhhhh... idk lack of sleep cos alot of side effect on mi budden there isnt enuff time for mi a day... thou i dunno what i bz wit

each time i tink back of all the little tings we ever sae i wonder if u still rem... thou i owaes believe tat u will rem budden i jus have the idea of if u reaili do... ProMise never 4get mi =]

[[time]]

2006-07-23T10:50:00.000-07:00

[[*time*]]

been sum times since i last blog ppl... budden hu reading nwdays hahas... sumtimes nt i dun wan blog jus wondering if there even ppl reading so jus skip blogging since someone sae i nvr update much den i update alot make sure u catch all the post be4 it disappear... hahas

umm...okay quite happening since i last blog ba... alot of tings happen...ppl been asking mi y my msn nic every time like sumting bad happen... actually it start wit mi n heng we were chatting n i change my nic to joke wit him ended up all thought what happen to mi n they msn mi n even sms mi!!! lol thx for the concern reaili... i am fine lar...

btw since u sae u read it often tis for u kay... i wan mit u for lunch n everyting still reaili budden i reaili cant brg myself seating dwn at the table wit the 4 of us... its too werid for the atmosphere... sumtimes ago i recall tings tat have happen be4 the more i tink the more i have the feeling tat i been tinking wrong of him from the start... i hope u dun tink tat i am petty i tink u noe mi mayb nt veri indept budden hope tat u dun see mi as petty cos nt having yr understanding after we noe each other so long reaili make mi feel sad... there r tings tat i cant sae much...

a... last wed met angie n joc lol she seat down at my table when i eating wit bryan lol... n met 1 of her firend i tink i going krazy i shouted the name quite loud tat was okay budden i actually sae huh tat one opposite of tat guan tou( botak) lol i dunno y i shouted so loud tat after i shouted i tink its reaili kinda loud hahas...mi n bryan have a good luff angie was ps-ing joc was eating lol... friday msn wit joc lol i sae i dote angie more den aNgie n QIaNx- more den aNgie n dunno hw the tok goes till joc sae she hate mi... i reply her ...lol its okay cos i dun like u too... lol thur was a good day met alot of friends ahhas met wei xuan, angie , mi xue and more lar

friday was nt reaili a nice day... i reaili have enuff at thur ask u do yr project wrk u give mi the yaya look n sae even teacher sae cannot n u go back read yr manga... i dun farking care if u wan read till u drop or what budden get yr wrk done can? i play u oso play i do wrk did u?! i have farking tolerate tis shits i tink there b a day when tings turn reaili bad... last friday cos of u we stay till 7pm... supervsior ask u all dun wan stay back help him? i kip quiet n sae i gtg bz... FOR FUCK I STAY WHEN U DUN GIVE A FUCKING CARE... each time untill teacher come den u start wrk n we stay n suffer wit u?! fuck off i dun wan tok back behind team mate or sae tings out i can lun buddenn dun push mi too far i dun give hu ever a shit when i am mad...

feel reaili kinda happi recently onli at times like tis i see hu is friends n hu is FUCK... i dun care hw valugar tis post is i jus dun wan tolerate tis shit from anione

*aniway i can b nice budden when i mad u dunno what i capable of

[[stun]]

2006-07-11T12:40:00.000-07:00

[[*stun*]]

tis will be a short short post lol... i feel fortunate cos i sleep 12hrs the day be4 nthing make mi more happi to see my eye bag better =]... budden it was onli to prepare mi for bigger one lol 3.37am nw gg tml 6 wake up for sch whahaa... play game lost... play again lost.... lol .... trust mi tio sold out... mit friend got no time lol what else can happen comon brg it on!!! hahas.... sori ppl been bz recently cos i bz wit... bz wit... cant find of aniting much oso budden dunno y so bz... got a movie date up soon superman!!! mit up wit friend for shopping ar? n another eat duck rice? n 3 bdae coming gg... btw jus for tis month hahas... suddenly i feel like i am zidane a moment of madness LOL going to sleep le nitez... btw morning cos u shd nt be reading... btw lesser n lesser ppl visit here liaoz where u all gone too??? hahas

[[trust?]]

2006-07-03T11:11:00.000-07:00

[[*trust?*]]

trust such a simple word budden so much ppl dun understand it... well idk if i understand it as well... given my trust to u budden u choose to hide tings from mi... u worried abt the broken trust in the first place y dun u even trust mi to understand the situation... friends??? what r them? when u nid helps they there for u? when u nid someone to tok to they there for u? when u reaili down n feel the world is crashing down yr chest he/she help u to lift it up abit wit everyting he/she got? so do i have friends? lol...

when do friends drift away??? i read tis from a blog be4 its so true its when u stop sharing n when u 2 stop toking... i misjudge u i guess i thought u someone tat can reaili b a close close friend even thou u might nt b tinking in my style budden u willing to b there budden tings changes i guess u never look mi up if i never find u... even if i contact u missing in actions... i am tired i contact every friends tat i treasure so much... yet none find mi mayb i jus " " to u yea nthing!!! idk mayb we each hold a diff view abt friends

tings r changing n ppl tat i noe do i reaili noe them... noticed sumting veir interesting i once saw tis phrase it was trying to sae tat actaully hu u understand or what nw i reaili get the pt hw much or u reaili understand someone n hw someone actually understand mi... veri interesting ... sound kinda werid post rite budden jus been random nthing big deal abt it a way to distress ba =\

[[alien]]

2006-06-29T10:11:00.000-07:00

[[*alien*]]

itinkiamalienbanopplgetwhatitryingtosae...itinktismessagemaybtherearentmanytatevenwantrytoreadnunderstand
huwillevengonmakealittleefforttounderstandwhatiwantedtosae...disappointedytatwheneverifeeltatsomeoneunderstand
whatiwantosaeowaesendupwitoutevenunderstandingnsaeiamwrongithurtmideepithurtmirealdeep...maybishdjuskip
quietnslowlyppldunremmyexistance...meaningless

[[idiot]]

2006-06-22T14:30:00.000-07:00

[[*idiot*]]

Friends are ppl tat i tink i shd treat them well tolerate them n b there for them ... jus cos of tis dun make mi an idiot... what i noe i might nt be able to explain... so dun take mi as a fool tat noe nthing ... dun try to hide from mi when i can see it ... is like treating mi as an idiot...

tired of everyting... tings i guess mostly rite... mayb i shd jus stay back n b the idiot tat i am been taken of... lost in thoughts... missing in action

[[sad...]]

2006-06-22T06:00:00.000-07:00

[[*sad*]]

is 5.44am n i cant get to sleep felt reaili terrible... felt so sad yet cant cry... everyone sleeping there no one i can find...

i am reaili sad when u tell mi forget abt u... u noe hw did i felt... its okay tat u dun like mi reaili... is okay tat u b wit other ... budden y ask mi to forget abt u ... i been trying to contact u budden each time u r owaes bz... i jus wan to noe hw u doing... mayb u feel werid having dinner or what wit mi alone budden i reaili wan to do tat for a friend... dun u mit yr friend alone n catch up... all i wanted was to b able to noe hw u been doing n if there aniting i can share n help u wit... mayb i dun even let u feel tat we could b close friend...

for a moment i reaili wish someone was there... even a friend tat could hear mi out or jus kip quiet accompany mi budden guess there are no ppl ard ...i try to b there for all my close friend when they nided someone n i wonder if there even anyone will try to b noe what happen to mi...

i guess i am wrong... i used to tink tat if we treat someone as a close friend he/she appericate the thought ... guess i am wrong all i get was been forgetten why do u sae u b free when u never even rem tat u sae we go out after ct? y do u even nt tell mi u have wrk n everyting... y do u sae u nt free onli at the moment tat i ask when u free... disappointed

everyone have thier own grp of friend in thier list n some u would call n ask hw they doing when u free or when u tink of them... guess i jus dun give those tat i thought were closed friends tat type of feeling... mayb u jus rem mi at the moment i find u ... reaili disappointed

[[holis]]

2006-06-18T13:44:00.000-07:00

[[*holis*]]

holidays started n i give myself a break from everyting since i wrk at least abit for the CT i reaili did put in abit of effort at least... studying was nt hard jus dun have the interest in it i guess... holiday started n what i did... it practically end at wed n i started doing nthing much n slacking for so long... wrks nid to b done n i nt started aniting related to the project wit it for nw everyday telling myself tat i start the next untill it been a wk...

thoughts... do ppl onli treasure tings when they r gone??? dunno y jus have tis random thought... vic went on holiday to hongkong for X days... asked if i wanted aniting hahas... asked her to get nice clothes if she can find mayb shd ask her get um... a.... gf? lol hahas thought hometown from taiwan? hahas

been sleeping late since holidays started n nw is like 4.47am? hahas ... tings will nid to b rush tis wk cos my mama burfdae coming at 21th n is oso bi han bdae! thou she never read tis blog hahas.... nid to get prezzie liaoz save save save at holiday den 1 shot all gone again i guess hahas wanted to get my 3/4 n everyting budden everytime too lazy dotz...

i getting abit random suddenly so idk y i wanted to blog tis entry actually jus wanted to sae tat i hope i can b carmel filled or sugar hahas... i wan a gf budden i shy to tok or what hw hw hw?!!! hahas jus been hvavnklajsdaiowc nmasfva jksnfcak yea tat is another way of saying random hahas u been gone for 5days n dun get to speak to u since u back...

[[bLog]]

2006-06-11T12:06:00.000-07:00

[[*bLog*]]

hmm... been sumtime since i blog cos i am....lazy lol... okay firstly my connection been down for veri veri long so if u never notice ( bo sim ) .... actually be4 tis kinda feel like blogging is toking to myself cos dun reaili tink alot noe abt tis blog budden actually is more like trying to tell someone someting since i dun reaili get to tok to everyone normally...

o well firstly y i blog??? hmm was tinking y i blogging n y i started blogging ... to b honest cos i want to noe U better ... so tat at least i can find some reason to mit up wit U ...tell u sumting tat U might nt noe... when we try setting up the blog each time we fail to set it up i actaully veri happi cos i noe it mean tat we get to mit again =] hahas sound kinda silly

holiday started hmm tink first week shd slack lar to make up for the hardwrk i put in for my common test ( few hrs to b precise ) so i slack till sunday n sae monday i start to b a better person budden honestly slacking is so relaxing hahas.... tink shd get tings started lar alot to do tis holiday actaully budden dunno if i will do it ma hahas... project fyp...driving....mit upw it friends....etc etc

feel alot like missing out on catching up wit my friends reaili get the kick tat day when i go yi wei hosue hahas... doubt u all noe hu he is budden he is someone from sec 1 to 4 class wit mi from someone tat hate mi to someone tat i feel a true friend nw... went to his house after ct ended hmm go out wit my class kinda werid cos they all long time friend n i kinda dun fit in the pic so i wen hm called him budden no reply... dunno y wit him every unlucky ting can happen first time miss so many bus 1 shot first time onli when i wan go his house reach there play wit msn abit den we play ps2 lol play games n jus lie dwn n relax chat n joke so enjoyable actually... there more friend tat i been missing out to mit up so sori kay cos reason is i am lazy... lol

firstly dunno y everyone veri happening recently 3 case 1 shot friend n friend backstab, like each other( den reject blah blah blah avoid in the end) , invade priacy ( read ppl blog some more lar). Dunno y friends they appear to others n mi budden the fact tat they feel so much abt each other inside kinda scary lar... i dunno i too straightforward ba... jus rem sec 3 i tio outcast by the class left abt 3 ppl in neutral they all anti mi hahas tink my attp too bad thou eventually everyting alrite... tink my attp nw still quite bad at times budden reaili lar i change alot better le no point hating each other all tat stuff lar dun like jus dun care lo... budden 1 ting i nt change yet...i veri shy lol believe it or nt... nt many ppl can see tat side of mi...if u see it mean tat... hmm... u someone specical to mi hahas

To: QiaNx-

So happi tat u come visit my blog n when u msg mi tat day it reaili make my day much better reaili =] ... btw post wit tis colour r meant for u hahas hope u enjoy yr little holiday to genting

[[wHaT hAePPe/\/inG?]]

2006-05-27T10:27:00.000-07:00

[[*wHaT hAePPe/\/inG?*]]

honestly idk what is happening y everyone ard mi is kinda different recently??? even i feel tat i starting to b abit diff too dunno what exactly is happening. today play a game dunno y so easily get pissed by a friend thou i dun tink he reaili much of a friend for he is too sellfish nt worth to mention his name... i kinda short temper recently too i tink cos i tinking too much

dunno what are u tinking... u owaes sae nthing budden i noe there sumting going on...mayb u dun wan to tok to mi abt it thou i reaili hope i can help share yr burden... tis make mi start to imaging n i getting sumting budden each time be4 i noe i might get the ans i stop cos i owaes remind myself tat u dun wan to sae it cos u might nt wan mi to noe it so i stop each time i abt to noe it...

dunno what happen to u too oso ask mi read yr blog no name no what den what i imaging ar? den ask mi dun tink so much shit u... lol

idk what my friends out there are doing idk hw yr wrk, life, everyting!!!... there owaes dun seem enuff time to catch up wit u guys mayb nxt week ba set aside some time or mayb at least i tink of set away some time for u all =]

and today i find out sumting i totally getting more n more curious n the worst part is i can find the ans if i wanted to!!! n idk y today i jus ask my bro if she like tat gurl lol even heng was shock y i asked tat bro LOL

stop here for nw cont when i have the feel ba mayb as in feeling better? lol

[[life...]]

2006-05-23T03:53:00.000-07:00

[[*life...*]]

well idk where to start so i started off wit tis... suddenly feel like blogging today never wen to sch cos my mama started to vomit since last night n +my lazyness mean no sch today woke up in the morning to chk on her den wen to sleep again den later on help her buy breakfast... n i wen to sleep again use it to recover the sleep i been lacking of ba... jus a moment ago she ask if i wanted to eat mango... i sae i dun.. den she huh dun wan ar... since she alr decided tat i have to eat y she asked mi? sumtimes dun understand y tings r jus planned for us witout our constent too nt jus refer to tis mango bud other tings as well... well nbm... n i eating de mango nw...

recently i turning krazy... guys or gals help mi plz my imagination has been going more n more wildly... see abit hear abit i start to links tings up... krazy it might sound budden when tings r rite? its getting scary... tings i thought out might b absurb budden if is rite is kinda disappointed cos the result is nt what i hoping for... recently sumting happen... n according to 2 side of my trusted friend 1 of them mus b wrong budden hu is wrong? it could mean tat one of them is lieing to everyone n + my recently gain wild imagation tis is getting worst... hmm idk i was told nt to tink too much well see hw tings turn up ba...

roughly told my situation to a closed friend too( cant sae out the name) n she offered mi a even worst situation n sadly she nt someone tat can hide her feeling well n if what she sae was true idk what am i going to do... y everyting told by everyone cant b as simple as what they sae... or am i too hard to u guys or gals tat i cant handle the truth? idk

sch started long ago budden onli feeling the effect nw cos ct is apporaching idk if the stun i did for the past 2 yrs will wrk again budden hope can pass tis time ba... well nt jus wan to hope i reaili going to study i guess budden when? the project driving mi krazy my teams is great budden at times idk hw to speak to them cos we r friends afterall... since i the leader( idk y i am oso) den i try to do tings my way by abusing the rights i have to get tings done ba

idk what the helling is happening to mi i getting shy...i noe u dun believe budden i reaili am stop mi kay i dun wan b so shy tat i cant even express myself n r u ever here? idk

-=inspired=-

2006-05-19T00:11:00.000-07:00

-= inspired... =-

a... after so long i guess i nt been blogging for some times... got a reason for it tat is lazy!!! n kinda dunno bz wit wat recently here abit of tings there abit of stuff end up midnight have to sleep... read ppl blog dun even reaili get to reply or what kinda hectic recently budden i noe sound quite impossible for mi to b tat way dunno y recently seem tat way....

o...wells let mi start wit top to btm tat is my head!!! wen to dye hair or more of highlight wit heng... hahas budden go there highlight le is like NO EFFECT!!! so wen back 1 week after tat as they promised to redo kinda like the colour nw budden will b changing lar as times pass... i noe sound abit werid budden the word change kinda make mi ponder hehe...

times pass veri fast n soon guess i going into army alr... time left seem short... found out tat ppl tat was so close to mi once nt reaili even tat good nw kinda dun like the feeling...idk y i like the feeling of the bond i have wit those special ppl tat i have in my life even as friends =] ... ppl there been so special tat i find in my life i jus wan them to b a little more if nt reaili tat close to mi budden sumtimes i guess i jus dun give them the same feeling they gave mi...

told u tat i wanted to change abit more... i dun wan b so shy ... dun wan to jus tink n nt do tings tat i wanted to... budden recently i am reaili reaili wear out bits n pieces hahas till jus nw for a moment i lie there wit my eye( 0.5 + 0.5 abt to close) n 2 hand there typing onli cos i dun reaili got the energy to do aniting else... wanted to call u budden i reaili wear out mayb out of service soon :\

there so much i wan to help budden hw much rites am i given to help??? idk hahas... so when i told u 24/7 i reaili mean cos u noe nt everyone got these wrds from mi =] recently quite alot tings happening ard mi n i guess i nt tat updated asap jus feel tat abit disappointed cos the bond use to feel was gone... budden there r still ppl tat r close to mi n i feel them closer more n more n mayb tis what u trying to tell mi the way they make u feel...

dunno y kinda feel u so special u have everyting i been dreaming of mayb jus 1 tat is lacking tat is the way tat u feel for mi is nt the way i feel for u... dun tink aniting might come out for the both of us cos u have the point tat i like tat is yr tinking if u ever fall for mi mayb u alr shd fate u call it? haiz ren sheng ma...n gold i a colour i tink tat i owaes relate u to =] smile

[[perfection???]]

2006-05-02T00:44:00.000-07:00

[[*perfection???*]]

hmm been long since i post n losta tings happening ba i guess jus never reaili get the movitation to blog... well there alot of thoughts rite nw.... budden tink no one noticed....

hmm....first in the list of tings tat happen in random order tat first come to my head.... aNgie bdae... wake up by a sms or wat if nt rem wrongly n get noticed of miting where tok to heng n wen out eat a drumstick for breakfast cos eating soon wen to westmall...be4 reach there change to kap??? since is her bdae nbm... budden heng sae ppl going r dunno de more n more n kip change all tat so left mi... reach there find QiaNx- budden she q-ing for her food wit a friend so wen up to find aNgie n joc... seat down start eating abit of the fries... idk it was completely planless as if the plan was there was no plan... hate to see everyting like tat n the bdae gurl so (*&^%$# oso so suggested to jp or in fact tell( cos they can onli follow) them to... aniway jp near thier house later go home faster can rest earlier... reach there chatted all tat been quiet not cos of wat budden they toking abt camp so i jus listening dun wry dun felt left out... wanted to tok to QiaNx- budden tink she tok abt the camp all tat oso ba... joc acting zhi bi... aNgie bdae gurl bz... so walk n tok abit here n there... the whole ting tat cahnge de day was i tink when i joke wit aNgie... we chatted abit n i joke abt she 4get my bdae... n guess wat she reaili did... nt reaili upset at tat moment wanted to play it as a joke... well i told her tat is nt impt lar reaili... jus tat u noe i did a recently well sae my expectation for myself is high tings i do i like seeking perfection n they so perfect tat tis tings might nt even exist in the world... ppl ard mi i asking mayb too much from them... making them wat i have in mind of them instead of wat they r themselves... i guess mayb i doing all tis to a buddy...n he treat mi as a friend... idk is like mayb to mi tis person is someone veri close n good to mi budden to tat person i jus another normal friend in his/her life... tat the test result tat sae i asking too much from my friend... mayb i rem everyting abt u every small detail n u jus noe i am gary... n nthing else more... aNgie i not saeing u lar jus i tinking... dun wry kay =]... everyting was quite okay untill the later part of the day at there suddenly i feel like going quiet mayb tired n slow dwn... reached home n msg untill i saw "Dun u tink i treating u badly?" ... honestly the ans no from str to my mine cos from wat i sae abv to mi mayb u someone special budden to u jus a good friend tat y mayb u feel tat u not treating mi good enough... idk i quite a xtreme person ppl tat i find click i go all the way budden mayb i dun give ppl the click feeling tat they gave mi... idk y i suddenly deep in thoughts budden those word suddenly make mi go slowwwwwww n tinkkkkkkk...

after some times i realise i nt the person tat i noe all along... i tink i am shy(u might dun believe budden nbm...) ... seeking attention in a way while like nt trying to attract attention... i veri hao sheng (idk hw to spell in english) ... i dun like tings tat r ez.... i love to challenge tings tat r hard

idk hu reading tis blog ani more... i no eye deer if tings i wanted to tell tat person if he/she get wat i wanted them to noe... idk y in msn when i on9 no ppl tok to mi.... idk y each time i tok to someone they jus like trying to end the tok....idk y some dun even tok to mi... idk y tok 1/2 way ppl jus mia... idk y i suddenly felt so sad tat i started to tears... idk y i am like tat thou i sae tat i will slowly change at least nt b shy...

[[good day...]]

2006-04-26T11:11:00.000-07:00

[[*good day...*]]

hmm today was a great day in whole...wake up early in the morning at 6 n headed to sch dunno y telling myself i nid to get sumting to eat badly so wen to canteen 1... after buying the food tink tat better to eat first cos while moving n eating tink will b slower... after finish my mini breakfast wen to class saw QiaNx-!!! aNgie n andy hahas kinda a pleasent surprise n a nice start for the day...

wen to class n as usual the class was crap lar tink tis sem the teacher getting more n more boring n kip repeating on n on n on... okay after tat super early dismissal so wen out wit my class to clementi for lunch dragged kinda here n there cos is like alot of time ba 2hrs? hmm reached the bus stop abt to board the bus untill someone ask mi to stop n wait for a few more? so i waited n my phone rang n hang up? n guess wat is was QiaNx- n aNgie at the bus tat i missed!!! argh... nbm so wen back to sch n cont the 1hr lesson n break again...

after like 3pm go klass for like 20 minutes finish again budden it started to rain... the whole gang dunno y take thier own swt time at the co op so waited there... n finally decided to head home wit xuen feng n aaron to the bus stop n saw QiaNx- n aNgie again!!! kinda make the day =]

hmm sch started n is tiring thou i sae tat sch start change for the better budden give mi 1 wk to change my clock kay cos i super not use to it rite nw n get tired at the wrong time... sch start...new klass... ppl there r great budden kinda dunno them well yet i guess n i reaili tired at tis point to make friend yet hmm mayb next wk? idk

be4 the end of the day great! my bro wen back to camp witout his pass so i wen do wit my dad for his second trip to pass to him n guess wat it is ez link not the pass wasted trip... mum n dad was like saeing #$%^&*(*&^% all tat budden kinda noe they worried all tat in the end it was in his bag... n they kinda sae tings like (*&^%$# yet at the same time seeing thier relief budden jus tis little act wear mi out ezily hahas...

been great for getting to see u =] wanted to call u budden tis little incident took place my phone been great on mi helping mi to save sms when i send n failed to send it out =[ hope ya doing fine still

[[tired...]]

2006-04-25T08:23:00.000-07:00

[[*tired...*]]

I AM SUPER TIRED... reaili reaili tired ... guess use 1 wk to get back to a diff timing n my stupid connection cant even let mi go msn n speak to ppl tat i wan to!!! ARGH!!!

[[hApPiE bDa3]]

2006-04-16T11:19:00.000-07:00

[[*hApPiE bDa3*]]

hApPiE BdAE!!! first of all i not been updateing lately hmm may learn driving n game too much n stupid connection make mi cant on9 when as i wan to contact ppl i wanted to... okay at 10th is heng bdae! hmm dunno did i mention in other entry we wen to eat snow crab hahas was crap lar if u noe the price lol guess we didnt order the way we should budden nbm lar is his bdae kay! ani way thx heng n bryan dudes i guess tat the first time i reaili sing K hahas enjoyed it!!!

not long ago i started my driving lesson alr a... kinda no sleep go there first lesson was crap lar tok to u like u an idiot budden well tat hw they earn money i guess... hmm after the first lesson kinda not reaili use to it cos while of prac n the lesson ended still wondering hw the tings wrk n i got 2hrs + of free time hmm so attended the final thoery lesson since i have to eventually after tat cont wit another lesson tis teacher sux to the max kip sae wrong never sae hw to budden i slowly get the idea of it was reaili fun when he ask mi to gear 3 n i wen like 40+ in the circuit lol n he was like " slow down slow down too fsat alr" i rem hw the swing abit in his sit when i doing the turn at those spd wahaha got de kick budden onli a few time i tink i get it all rite... after tat met joe n chatted wit him all tat kinda nice to have someone acc on the way hm hahas...

hmm after few more days tat is like good friday? wen to grandma house for her bdae! cos of the holi decided to brg it forward so tat everyone got the time to mit up hmm wen there joke wit cousin all tat abit of catching up hmm kinda nice day after tat wen hm... hmm lately connection been reaili bad dun even noe wat i sended to ppl r been sended all tat wanted to noe more abt them budden kinda dunno if those tings r send? hmm hope they receive it n rem i still rem them!!! hahas hmm next wk alot of lesson of driving tink will b kinda bz...

for as myself sch starting soon fun stopping soon n a diff kinda of fun will b starting dudes! hope have the time to attend those performance n ppl out there which i intended to ask hw u doing hope all been doing well n kinda miss u 2 =] been so long since last saw u...ever since my bdae? haahah

[[bz wit nth....]]

2006-04-07T22:08:00.000-07:00

[[*bz wit nth....*]]

hmm been long since i last blogged a... like a wk or wat? not reaili sure aniway i dunno wat i bz wit mayb mass gaming all tat... thou is stupid to sae gaming is good for one budden i tink it reaili helps mi hahas mange to sort out some tinking while i can rest during some break in the game...

well tings go like tat for mi for the wk monday... i wen for my basic thoery test...at the evaulation i was nervous budden today i was not at all u noe y? cos i am prepared? the ans is cos i never sleep for damm long alr!!! tat y abit no feeling to everyting abt reach jurong i den start take tat book n see cos i scare i overslept the darn train was damm slow for dunno wat reason so nearly was late n i jog + run + walk to bbdc... reach there chk abit late budden in time for the test sit down take a breather n started some leave quite early jus submit n i pass? nthing much of happiness of wat mayb happi cos dun nid come back again??? after tat started my way home abt 1.5hrs to there 15mins there 1.5hrs back kool rite =]... msg n called ppl cos bored budden no reply n reply when i onli abt to sleep to sleep thx arh... tink my phone abit cranky gg dunno y cos send some msg no reply n found out they dun receive ='[

okay after monday is tue..wed...thur...fri... for some reason lol i dun reaili noe wat is happening tis few day??? lol game n game n eat n eat herbal chicken...korea spicy... tom yam all type of noodles i eat it all n cup one oso... i noe is damm unhealthly budden arrrr.... hu cares? lol okay den jus been tat way for some time n heng bdae comeing! n u noe wat the best part of it? we going to wu zhao pia to eat! idk how much is it going to cost budden we jus going to have seafood i dun care i wan good food

been deeply inspired by the way 1 of my friend live her life hahas kinda make mi wan sae sumting... mum can u stop singing lol yr singing is bad n everytime while we watching those show wit nice music n u sung!!! lol idk budden its rude to tell u to speak it all out here... lol noticed after some time i reaili not a family person i guess dun reaili enjoy going out wit parents or wat thou i still care for them budden my way of expressing is not by doing tings or going out wit them all tat well idk how ppl tink well if have the heart tink is enough ba

n dunno y till now idk y i cant seperate the stupid paragragh mayb cos i am tat "pro" lol try so many times onli 1 time did it well today u r back welcome back!!! miss ya... hmm dunno y i seem to b a little more happy den be4 well every sem i met new ppl n learn more tings ya so tis sem wat i b come to? idk let see abt it den used to been answered by the same ans hahas mayb jus kinda used to it or wat?

[[delicated for u...]]

2006-03-29T00:51:00.000-08:00

[[*delicated for u...*]]

hmm... noe i not been blogging sumtime now is 12.33am wed n i was kinda like sick yst... tink i wen out to cycle n wen home abit sweat n go air con room n abit not reaili feeling well... bit shag shag blur blur feeling like those time when u jus going to sick or recover budden now alr much better... mayb is the holiday making mi more n more lazy nowadays...

yst tok to u... i noe is sad budden reaili disappointed tat all along u dun even noe mi well... budden tink positive mayb next time we b closer after u noe mi... i noe it mayb make u sound kinda u bad budden i dun intend to at all jus wan sae sumting...

i tink mayb we jus lack the fate... the fate tat we get to spend more time together get to noe each other better to even tok to each other more... like u sae it take 2 hand to clap yea budden everyone feel diff for everyone n the effort u going to give out is surely diff... mayb yea like u sae i am great the way i am budden jus dun make u feel the extra effort not wat jus u still care u jus treat as a friend budden cos we get together lesser n the effort part sure diff... u noe i oso wish i could help send u to a doc budden if i do tat dun u feel werid? n cos we dun often get to tok i get to noe onli later...

i getting super complicated i guess cos i find tat i trying to do ppl dun get it... its alrite they dun get the meaning of wat i doing budden they even felt tat i dun make the effort to... i dunno guess i stop explain for myself get how much u get tings i sae n do i guess leave it as it is... y i post such sad tings at times... cos when i reaili down n all i cant reaili find someone to tok to at times... yst i so sad idk y budden jus have the feeling tat i dun have for so long tat i tears...

thx ppl every sem i met new ppl tat make mi learn new tings n make the person i am now i guess every sem there jus a new diff mi wit new tings i learn along de way... when there fate or wat u go the extra mile to noe someone better... hunt mi ya i rather u do tat

[[unhappi]]

2006-03-21T01:14:00.000-08:00

[[*unhappi*]]

I AM VERI UNHAPPY...budden hu noes...hu understand...hu noe wat i wan...hu cares...

[[* @#$i%^&d()k_+]]

2006-03-21T00:51:00.000-08:00

[[* @#$i%^&d*()k_+*]]

i dunno wat happening lately i guess been too stuck at hm for so long mayb too outdated of the world outside n alot of tings like diff alr...well today woke up alot of times in the middle of the night thou i wanted to sleep early cos going to bbdc later in the day budden kip wake up so wen on9 game abit n here n there...hmm.. ard 6 papa waking up off everyting go sleep budden abit like cant sleep so on again on9 den tink mama waking up again so off everyting budden i did not sleep till she step out so on everyting again hahas... hmm wen to bbdc today take the practise jus some common sense qns budden some abit tricky lar the practise never reaili use my brain cos sae le is practise den when the evaulation come i abit nervous i guess... did the front part the qns abit stupid till i tink i get it wrong abit sian cos wrong abit fail le so jus cont lor but heng lar 94% in the end thou passing is 90% well pass le go down no more slot for march cos all fully taken up so wen hm after tat dunno y skin abit itchy outdoor mayb too long indoor? i allergic to outdoor? lol so in anicase anione nid someone to go out or wat mayb can try ask mi kay? hahas i serious i get itchy... tis entry dun intend to use much brain power cos i tink is drying out le hmm tings dunno y changeeee mayb mayb for mi i tink when u tink u noe n get enough u jus stop there... dunno if anione of u get wat i saeing hahas

[[did it slip off yr mind...]]

2006-03-16T00:56:00.000-08:00

[[*did it slip off yr mind...*]]

hmm been slacking at home recently n nthing much mayb too little movement all tat kinda like not reaili feeling good... well guess jus nid more sleep...

hmm i dunno y u never tell mi...mayb it slip off yr mind... i was expecting u would tell mi when the time is near... well mayb u feel tat if i go alone is kinda wierd for u as well... well idk budden i reaili wish i could go there at least i get to see u...

not reaili aniting recently y...

[[whInE//WhiNe//whINE]]

2006-03-14T00:33:00.000-08:00

[[*whInE//WhiNe//whINE*]]

there so much i wan to whine abt!!!...where should i start??? hmm...oaky first driving my parents kip asking mi learn learn learn learn learn learn learn learn learn learn learn learn laern idk jus kip asking mi i oso noe budden let mi choose plz is like when wit them yst at a house warming they jus sae eat eat eat eat eat eat eat eat eat eat!!! n all of the adults do tat ended up i become so no wei kou to have aniting...

now i tink i finally noe how to blog in those paragragh i wanted it to b if i not wrong??? hope i am rite there so much in mi tat i wan to sae n whine budden hu listening!!! i jus wan to whine whine whine whine whine whine whine whine whine whine whine whine whine!!!

i dunno y i miss u....n i reaili do... i miss u i miss u i miss u i miss u i miss u i miss u i miss u i miss u i miss u i miss u i miss u i miss u i miss u!!! can i?!!! i dunno i reaili miss u i tink of u days n nights N I CANT EVEN SEND U A HEY...idk idk idk i miss u!!!

N TIS FOR THE NEW PERSON READING IT YEA IS U PADI FEILD...i dunno reaili tink we someone tat can click budden idk like u sae u hate to see ppl saeing u smiliar when u tink they dunnp u... well 20+days

btw i jus give comments n opionion(i dunno how to spell) there is sumting tat i cant do...cos i not the the rite place to do... well for some wat i can do is cos i tink tat wat i wish to do for u...well go comprehend...

[[aFteRmaTh]]

2006-03-06T17:48:00.000-08:00

[[*aFteRmaTh*]]

hmm been some time since i reaili blog sumting tat make abit sense i guess hehe...well exam over n tings seem to b too good...life of doing nthing much everyday waking up noeing there nthing for u to wry...n de onli ting u nid to wry is wat u going to do from the list hahas...well is fun budden it will b kinda short cos have to start learning driving soon...

first of all feel kinda bad u noe...my papa kip stressing mi to learn asap budden i was like wat the hurry(tat was reaili a exucse for my lazy-ness) since i not driving straight away after i got my lisence... my today my dad kinda ask him how much my friend bought his car...i got a feeling tat mayb he tinking tat if he can do tat as well... seriously u all might not understand wat i reaili feel budden i hate tis feeling making your dad trying his best to give the best to u even like a car... i turn the topic to other ting so tat he dun b too in thoughts of tat...i noe recently my dad work not been smooth n the income not reaili good...tat day when my mum wen into my room telling mi if i spend lesser time wit my com cos the elecrticity bills is kinda getting higher n higher... i dunno i reaili like to on9 late all tat budden y? cos i heard tat electricity will at night is cheaper n i could spend the day sleeping since i not having at sch or wat budden they jus tink tat i kip on game n game i noe i overdo it at times when i thought of using my allowance to help wit the electricity bill budden got the feeling tat adults like thier age will not feel good having thier child paying the bill is like in another way telling them i pay for it to use it...like they cant afford the extra amount i never had tat idea budden have to tink wat if they ever felt tat way... i not asking for a car or wat reaili cos i tink those ting is +++ if your family happen to b better off n dun ever wish for tis ting my parents felt bad for not been able to give mi wat my other friend parents could... i telling them cos i jus wan them to noe wat is happening ard mi not i asking for it...

well exam over n i dun care at first gonna b a few days 'bad' boy first be4 i get serious wit wat i reaili going to do for tis holiday have to learn driving asap be4 my parents get more anxious or wat n aniway i have a great dreamz n i find someone wit tat dreamz as well tat is heng lol we wanted to take part in tat contest where u put yr hand in there die die dun put away n u can win a car lol tat ez rite? lol for ppl like us have nthing to lose it worth the try hehe... n there a buddy tink abit mia tat bryan u noe tat day when i on9 not reaili in a good mood when i telling the ppl i chatting wit or wat i have to sleep early cos electiricy bill x have to play less...he make a causal remark u come my house we can play lar... mayb tat nthing much for other budden i reaili felt good for he offer tat thou i not so krazy jus go there n ton to game hahas( actually i might)... n yst heng sae the radio was high lol n after listening was reiali nice n now i dun on my tv n stone at com since tv use my electricity? i listen to radio hahas i noe nt much help budden better den nhting hehe...well suddenly have tis thought feel tat some ppl tat i wanted them to visit my blog never come hahas kinda disappointed cos some part of the post at times is delicated to them... well nbm i take it here as some place where i can whine abt my own tings...

for someone1:

hmm...hope everyting going well for u...words unsaid words unspoken dun mean tat they not there ya...u sae tis be4... i tink no family member in a family will b 4gotten or hu is better... everyone in the family hold a special place in each of them... there actually alot of tings i wanted to sae budden i reaili dunno how...mayb when i have a idea of how to put tings more nicely or wat den tell ya...miss u...[=

for someone2:

tis idea actually get from her lol...u so unquie n special budden lol too bad u never noe my blog add so dun tink u even get the chance to read tis... jus feel tat at times when u reaili dishearted u will have the feeling of if i never ever noe tis person how well den...budden i felt tat everyting happen in yr life give u a chance to learn... where u learn to appericate tings n understand tings better if there no ups n dws in yr life y would u live for...onli unhappy days n tings can reflect on happi tings n days ya witout them how u noe u having a good day or tat a good tings hahas...cheer up

for someone3:

i dunno wat happen to u...if u de one tat changed or am i begin to noe u better??? i once strongly believe in wat i noe abt u budden wat happening recently onli jus prove tat someone told mi abt u is getting more n more true...i dunno y kinda felt the drift between us...dunno y tings r tis way now budden reaili dun like the feeling of someone tat i tink close to mi to b further n further away... wat tings bothering u now u dun sae alr... tok to u kinda push 1 time move 1 time ... tings r not tat way be4 budden y isit now? hopes tings turn out better ba aniway hope u doing well rite now too

n for my 2 friends Mi xue n christinE onli 1 noe my blog thou i noe u all felt kinda sad for yr results...mayb there nthing much i can sae to help budden reaili lar dun stress yrself so much from now kinda tink u both under perform cos too stress so better kinda tat bad habbit away gurls kinda have tis kinda of problem... lol may guys tat i noe more happi go luckily...wen u play jus play hard when study jus try yr best can le actually lol... if there time catch up or wat kay???

i dunno my circle of friends not reaili kinda big so sumtimes i kip bugging u ppl or wat lol cos if i bug u kinda a good ting...cos show tat u someone tat i care for kay? lol not everyone wan den have de hor lol well again tis part most of the ppl dun get to see it again hahas...n for phaters n dudes...well ren sheng ma... tis more of blog lar rather den wat polictic den sae wat teacher 2hrs earlier den xi shua shua xi shua shua de u call tat a blog? i call it phaters blog lol...

hmm...cant reaili tink of wat to sae alr hahas thou feel like there sumting well mayb cos now is 5.42...AM tat y lol i listen to u hor sae sleep earlier i sleep reaili earlier in the morning bleah [= budden u someone1 lol now u noe hu u r...well everyone tat reading tis should i mean SHOULD b someone close or at least quite close to mi take care ya mayb i might not tok to all the ppl everytime budden some tings r the thoughts hahas...

[[ExAms]]

2006-02-28T08:16:00.000-08:00

[[*ExAms*]]

its been some time since i blogged well exam is near n lazy to do alot of tings oso... tis time planned to do well budden kinda too lazy over the whole sem alr guess abit too late budden jus do pass year paper still should b enough ba... the worst ting abt exams is tat u dun even fear of it n dun reaili give it a dam...tat when u dun even have the idea to study for it...

well now is 6.14pm n i studying for my tml paper n wat the best part my revision jus started abt an hr +... yea u r rite jus started jus now be4 tis never studiee for tis paper yet hmm dunno if can cos i see the terms r quite aliens to mi n i rem sumting those on9 ting i never submit tis time quite good game... tat a term in gaming to tell u its over nice try...

hmm is less den abt 4hrs n can i completely?....idk... been reaili reaili tired since tat day wake up so early cos i live simply too farrrrrrr...n tml going to b as early as well budden dun care lar last 2 papers onli ppl tat tok to mi find mi tat mayb tis few days i kinda hot tempered or wat jus been fed up by sumting recently n i choose nt to sae to make the person feel bad n some giving mi stupid attp budden tell u wat i dun give it a dam...

well tml the second last 2 paper all b over at thur 11am!!! actually earlier den tat lar cos i sure dun nid tat long to do all of tat... well everyone(refer to selected fews) after exams we catch up ya some ppl nt been seeing them for so longggggggggg le hmm 2 more days n its party time!!! have to get back to my study alr still quite much n sadly i dun feel the pressure...lolx... tink not much ppl got time to read tis post too budden for "everyone" good luk for yr exams n cya soon [=

[[tHouGhts...]]

2006-02-18T03:11:00.000-08:00

[[*tHouGhts...*]]

hMm...recently been at home mostly ba...toked to some friends all tat n realised sumtime mayb wat i noe abt some friends is onli the veri surface n not reaili noe them well...jus tinking back of wat a closed friend tell mi abt the other friend i use to jus agree blindly onli to find out recently is quite true... well i reaili wish to noe those tat i wanted to noe better budden it take 2 hand to clap...well hope they feel at least abit as mi ba...

hmm..n realise sumting...feeling is sumting tat u cant control n i dun understand y some ppl choose to make themselves so unhappi by words of others n den seek help from ppl tat care...idk i reaili dun noe tis onli make ppl tat care for them to b worried in a sense...not saeing hu or wat budden generally from wat been happening...

notice alot in my friends recently some got tings sae out...some jus choose to kip to themself... hmm aniway i dunno exactly wat i saeing alr hahas jus the mindmap in my brain now... in general feel some friends r like been drifted away n idk now...n 1 ting wat do u do wen u wan to chat wit someone yet u dunno how to??? how i wish i get to speak jus abit more wit u

[[* [= *]]

2006-02-15T05:17:00.000-08:00

[[* [= *]]

hmm well today wen for sch as usual n abit struggle to get out of the bed cos today is partical so mus go for sure...reached sch abit earlier den usual saw a cab wit a student in it coming out wit a bear carrying roses hahas so cute...he look abit awarkard i guess n headed to blk 8 straight...have my breakfast n wen for my pdp2...reach there as usual the teacher sae tis cannot tat cannot n i jus seat there n ask her yea? so wat i do... after saeing the ting cant work she tried n it work i was like ... nbm... n so i cont wit the work left( wat she sae i left wit)

the work there kinda hard cos cant see the error n have spends hrs doing some reaili krazy chking...alot of my classmate leave early after the complete n give up alot n i sort of complete all den dun reaili care le jus copy the ans i cant get n see if tat teacher so jian chi... budden from the abt 1hr after sch start receive a sms hmm never thought of jus dream of n hahas saw a sms tat make my day [= thx

after tat find out tat tink abt 4 class together lesson almost 3 class not going hahas n at lunch saw QiaNx- n aNgie...nic wen over there n i wanted to go after awhile budden cos they toking abt wat to do later on n be4 i can get to there...hmmm they packing up thier tings alr... manage to bid goodbye to QiaNx- n smile hehe... n btw she look xtra stunning today hahas [=

never wen for the bowling wit nic they all cos is kinda late n u noe at west side too... n be4 tat wen to town wit nic n joe they all... wen there have a drink n rest at wisma after walk from places to places manage to contact bryan n he mit us ... nic wen for the bowling session while mi n bryan wit the rest... we kip playing hand sign using language tat onli we 2 understand hahas kinda high... some unhappy incident happen n well dun reaili have the rights or wat to care other ppl tink too so... they wen for kbox n insist tat i go budden i still turn them down n wen to search for sumting wen home after tat n nthing reaili great or wat budden the day is brighten up wit a msg hahas [=

[[vdae...]]

2006-02-14T00:28:00.000-08:00

[[*vdae...*]]

hMm...well guys or gurls today is Vdae n wishing everyone a happi one i guess hehe...well tis day dun jus meant for lover i guess is for friends as well some r spending it wit lover or wat while some mayb jus cont thier normal routine... Wanted to do sumting budden tink mayb she shy or wat ba hahas so see how tings turn out ba...

hmm...i not been blogging for some days alr n recently dun reaili noe wat i doing...under going some kinda of tinking process...tink i kinda selfish n tinking of ways to improve myself...well i use to understand the meaning of u dun nid to b wit someone if u reaili like tat someone... well recently quite happening ba...

chatted wit some friends tat i never reaili get the chances to tok wit... tink everyone have thier problems n even i willing to help i tink it take time to gain thier trust... well tings r not good for some ppl ard mi recently n kinda sad witout noeing wat i can do to help too well jus hope them turn out fine n can come to mi if there is aniting...

hMm tink i going to start my study reaili soon le...tings r slowly sorting out up there in my brain now hahas... i i reaili wish is "cos tings going too fast" [=

[[dreamz...]]

2006-02-09T02:46:00.000-08:00

[[*dreamz...*]]

today suppose to wake up at 6 for the 8am lesson...budden no point going so early so tinking of waking at 7 reached at 9... rem my mum asking mi n i told her i can still sleep...have a wonderful dreamz...tink each time i too into tinking sumting i will dreamz of it...even in the dreamz i was so happi tat i asked myself i not dreamzing rite?! it was so real...

if there a chance to stay in the dreamz is good cos everyting is jus wan i reaili wanted it was so swt... even after waking up i have doubt myself tat i am dreamzing budden the moment i found my head lieing on the pillow...hahas the fact was the fact i tink was fact was dreamz instead hahas...saw the time n i was like 11.30 alr...abit shock budden cont to go sch for awhile i guess...

work on the board n found a error the teacher sae was my fault budden it was her to ask mi do tat kinda pissed off by them so wen off early...never even get to eat...bought a burger n met heng...he called mi earlier on n be4 wat the next ting was my phone low batt...lol missed the chance to see gene in person i guess...

reached home game abit chatted wit heng friend hahas kinda nice ppl mostly...hahas yea n chatted wit some friend tat is so bz tat is usually like handling millons dollar business n i get to tok to boss... lol set mi abit to tinking mode again tings kinda werid recently...y???

[[wear out...]]

2006-02-08T03:17:00.000-08:00

[[*wear out...*]]

been reaili reaili tired from everting dunno y...not i unhappi or wat lar jus tat reaili feel the body is not handling tings like it use to... today actually a friend of mine wanted to ask mi out for dinner...budden rejected her request dun wan her to treat mi spend the $$$...n oso i reaili tired... wen for lesson tis morning n reached there i dun reaili have the mood to joke to told my friend tat i helped him to take his ting...the teacher actually tell mi can i b more ke qi? i was like toking in my normal voice can? dun care lar jus carry on... i tink my look was so firece tat my classmate sitting beside mi dun even dare to lend my ting i like give those no expression face n see side way he dun even dare open up his mouth n after i left awhile he lend from the person siting next to mi...

wen to canteen to have lunch heard abt the test later on n was like dun give mi clue plz cos i dun even noe a shit abt it n i noe is gone...so i rather dun wan the clue...mit up wit heng n wen for the q n a pleasent suprise saw QiaNx- n aNgie...greeted them budden QiaNx- was like chatting wit her friend so never reaili even have eye contact...ate the lunch crap like normal cos is wit heng so its still not tat bad...after tat mit up to pass tings due to bryan selective pon-ing... met up wit my classamate n headed for the class n saw QiaNx- again hahas again not much chance to tok untill we reached blk 6...at there manage to tok abit be4 going up for the lab...

3 fooking 3hrs n i mean no early other class all gone onli left us everytime wanted to study budden my com no office cos the dumb lvl 4 stuff kip making stupid sound when doing my com act cute i dun even bother looking at him took abt 1hr be4 wen back to class...kiat jun told mi how ez the test is cos she alr noe the qns roughly will b like ask her to gulid mi abit den do quite okay...at the test teacher use stunt again walk out of the class took garrett paper n copy copy copy! den teacher wen back n tis time worst to lift lobby jus when we highing dead other teacher was at the door at normal n cont...tink can pass lar dun reaili care...reached home wen to chat budden not much ppl reaili on9 played some game budden finding it starting to b abit meaningless...

y do ppl blog??? so tell the ppl ard them their life...share thier happiness...tat the usual case budden is oso a place where u can sae tings out when u wanted to sae n no one is there at tat time...i not sad or wat jus find tat is a way to tok mayb cos i dun reaili tok to everyone tat i noe...

feel tat mayb all along i am wrong to guess n assume...its help in a way budden harm in a way to...sumtime jus like the feeling of carrying nthing n walking in a empty street near the evening when the wind is cooling n nobody budden b better if there reaili someone tat is close like a gf? or even a dude(dude refer to the guys friend tat is reaili close to mi)...jus walking n relaxing...kinda like the feeling of lieing in a chair stoneing infront of tv n dun bath dun do wat jus lie there hahas...

dunno is tat i tink too much or wat? budden hope tat tings at least remain the same...look at the converstaion we have n understand better(tink lack of sleep)...well dun mean no mayb there b a day where tings turn out jus the way it should b??? sae be4 sori if make mi feel unimportant... n tings tat reaili make mi happi... mayb not in the sense of couple budden noeing tat i am someone close to ya the thought alr make mi happi [=

[[buRFday]]

2006-02-07T00:33:00.000-08:00

[[*buRFday*]]

hmm...kinda looking forward to today hahas...well tis year reaili have alot of ppl rem my bdae...budden as expected the whole day i will b kinda drifted away hahas cos was expecting sumting...well so sori if i give anione of u all a "o...thx" face cos from wat i noe almost everyone or should i sae everyone sae till thier prezzie scare i dun like... or saeing is too simple all tat... well actually i appericated everyone thoughts kay dun wry...mayb jus apart of mi wishing tat if anione noe exactly wat i wanted hehe as in jus if u can get the thoughts is alr veri nice...

mit up for lunch wit heng n the gang...chated abit be4 miting han to get my "special eraser" hahas n guess wat she reaili give mi an eraser hahas n planned more she gave mi 2 t shirt tat were veri nice budden as usual she sae tat i might not like the prezzie n feel stress all tat...after tat wen back to heng they all...rush my bowl of noodles cos is alr like soaked too long n vic came... saw the wrapping alr can guess wat the gift is from everyone hahas... got a parfums from vic...a wallet from heng, bryan, nic + vic? hahas n a cake bake by vic... everyting was nice... after tat cake session wen to mit QiaNx- for my prezzie...mit up wit her..aNgie..andy chatted there budden dunno lar...n wen to movie after tat

took bus to great world after they agreeing dunno on wat hahas my heart kinda not there oso budden jus wen ard wit them...wen there bought the tickets...the person was kinda rude saeing "a...your tickets" i find it kinda rude to sae tat budden nbm after tat receive a call...nic pass his hp to mi n it was wen han...he wanted to join us to celebrate wit mi too...n btw receive alot of msg from all those friends tat been long n they rem...all the thoughts all tat were reaili been appericated by mi...reaili thx [= cant add a sit so we ask if can buy the 4 ticket n sell tis back n the person beside him was replying to him up to u...tink he too shy to reject the request... at least did sumting rite...caught the movie the second time hahas budden is nice...

after tat movie wen to take a bus...have a tok wit bryan n decided to walk wit him down den i take bus from there kinda interesting lar crap n all tat n chatted cos i abit too early...budden when abt to reach there called christinE n she is like a stop ahead of mi so jus nice...met up wit her n have pasta for dinner...wen to shop for CHEAP pants for her new job ended up suggesting gionardo(dunno how to spell) n 4get tat witout my mama vip still got my bdae for discount!!! hahas n the stuffed 20 dollar in her bag was found out so ended up making her pay for the dinner n a gift...was reaili nice of u thx... after sending her to bus stop started to walk back to the train station...kinda in thoughts untill home...

when reached home sat down to relax den show my mother all the prezzie i received were all veri nice n den saw my phone got a msg kinda hoping budden was from chirstinE hahas so replied n she mia hehe...drink the soup my mama cooked the ingredient was like so much took quite sum time be4 finishing it... thx again everyone for everyting every effort u all put in tat jus to hope to make my day abit better [=

been waiting for a reply...not hurrying u or wat budden hope tat at least everyting remain as in be4 kay? reaili like your prezzie it might b simple to u budden is special to mi even the bdae greeting notez thx so much for everyting [=

[[bdae...]]

2006-02-06T02:11:00.000-08:00

[[*bdae...*]]

today is my bdae i guess...well for those tat read my blog should noe cos u are alr ppl tat are closer to mi...i dunno tink i not so much of a family person... i tink i rather do tings for my family witout they noeing it dun reaili so going out wit them or wat...hahas dunno y... actally alr noe my bro getting mi de cheese cake...noeing tat i have to go out to let them sign mi bdae song i kinda reluctant...hehe budden still have to nid to go out hahas...

wen out to mi QiaNx- n aNgie today supposely reached there early so walked ard for awhile n saw QiaNx- walking toward the miting place...was wondering y aNgie was not ard...onli to noe tat she cant make it today have to go home for dinner...she roughly told mi tat day alr budden she never cfm!!! hahas... so mit up wit QiaNx- n find out tat andy is coming...well a moment of high n low lol...so waiting quite sum times for andy budden he was like so long cos she send aNgie to station be4 miting us!!! at first i have to sae was kinda werid lar hahas budden after awhile get better

mange to tok to QiaNx- still hehe well she dun intend to eat ended up mi n andy eating dinner onli kinda werid planned to treat QiaNx- n aNgie for dinner de...well next time or wat ba...after tat shop ard for awhile n i dun tink intend to go home too late cos QiaNx- tml have alot of test n long day ahead so well... the whole day kinda goes diff from wat i planned budden still gald to mit up wit her....n she refuse to tell mi wat my pezzie is!!! wanted to send her home budden she stay at work place awhile be4 heading home so wen wit andy in the end

the whole day kinda feel diff dunno y...even thou tis year more ppl rem my bdae n wished mi all tat dunno y kinda feel diff... well hope my wish come true n get the most wanted prezzie hehe [= n thx everyone for rem-ing it n put those efforts in it...

[[open house...steamboat]]

2006-02-05T03:08:00.000-08:00

[[*open house...steamboat*]]

been days since i last blogged...tis fews days everyting was quite okay...at friday finally go to sch since like 1 week...n the ppl tat attend the class was like so little aniway abt 20+ abit more onli... got a chance to watch QiaNx- dance be4 my lesson at 2 chatted awhile wit her be4 leaving for the class...my parthner was late so almost all i did myself dun tink he noe wat is happening oso n we finished the lab so it took more time den usual... n unable to catch the second performance...

wen ard in sch after tat to help bryan find out wat mangement course avaible budden dun reaili tink he noe wat he asking oso...wen to atrium there saw the tkd n nra booth...saw joc...n find out tat aNgie is like not feeling well n fainted all tat...n saw xuen feng performance was reaili nice so decided to stay there n kill time be4 miting vic later on...saw his performance few times were all nice...n saw sarah after tat not reaili sure was her untill after a few look...budden she seem like dun recongise mi so i jus cont stone-ing there...

got too bored so decided to move ard the sch...den receive a msg from vic she done wit her lecture...mit up wit her to find her cousin...her cousin was so cute hahas cos she is like sec 4 now n have such a swt voice n like a kid hehe...n someone called my name hahas saw someone in my secondary sch...she was my junior wit my friend cca red cross have a chat wit her was fun ba from the catching up... n cont to walk ard the sch wit vic n her cousin...cos the main ting of all tis is tat her cousin wan take a look at nic...hahas wen to LSCT there have a look n guess wat saw my cousin!!! hahas poke her in her arm n she was like hey... hahas kinda happen fast n we move on...n finally the male lead arrive n we have to go to canteen 1 to mit him!!! hahas...be4 tat i was helping vic cousin to carry her bag cos we were walking up the "hill" her bag was like going for war...hahas she kip asking mi to let her take back the bag budden when carrying it noeing the weight i jus insist on helping her ba cos she like so small in size wit tat full bag hahas...

be4 miting nic i return her the bag telling her so tat nic dun see her as abusing mi hahas...she so cute when we mit up wit nic she was like so quiet playing ard wit her water bottle...nic can onli mit us awhile be4 he leave for work...after nic leave vic alr bought dinner n i planned actually going to SIM to eat dinner... kip tease her cousin wit nic h she like bush hahas like a kid...cos of the plot to let her noe nic ended up i told my mother i not having dinner n eventually i ate at my house downstair like coffee shop to have my dinner...

sat...wake up as usual took a peep at my mother while she mopping the cleaning the floor was reaili too tired today wanted to go to sch at first to send her to work...hehe budden dunno how she tink of the idea n reaili felt super tired...so never wen in the end...wen to my friend house samuel for steamboat wit my sec friend...the gathering kinda fun lar budden some of the ppl there i dun actually care...example when we playing cards n i lost he is like here pay, here pay even those tat saw it like sae him...y scare tat i run... they jus too selfish n jus tink for themself... budden mit up wit 3 ppl tat i tink reaili worth miting up hahas...share wit samuel for banker n lost like total 2 of us 80 in 5 rd hahas... budden was fun lar wen home after tat while they go to another house for majoing session

took the bus home n wen to the parl finally owaes wanted to try siting at the top there doing nthing...the feeling was quite good wit the night n abit cooling...budden will b better wit some company...the kids there starting to leave n so i wen to the park below my block...phone my friend tat i not been contact n took the swing chatted abit n is abit like giddy so wen home the mood was not reaili good for the moment so reached home switch on my com n sat there...tink even my mum saw mi sae i too tired dun reaili dare tok to mi too...hahas...not much ppl was on9 manage to chat wit sarah awhile hahas kinda fun cos was toking crap n she signed off den christinE sign in chatted abit n she signed off...n soon wei xuen signed in chatted abit n she wen off hahas... guess everyone doing thier own ting...phone QiaNx- budden she on her way home wit aNgie oso...so not reaili a good idea leaving aNgie alone siting there so never call n tink calling later on budden no one pick up the second time i call guess she bathing or resting alr...

for u...(sign in)

reaili wanted to spend my dae celebrating wit u...budden tink u feel uncomfortable wit the idea ba...u called nic they all thou i not dun like it budden mayb abit cos i wan to spend the day wit u... mayb call aNgie if u reaili dun feel well wit the 2 of us... they might b my closest dudes budden dun reaili feel like celebrating wit them...budden if u feel better wit thier precensei am fine wit it jus abit disappointed ='[

[[never alone...]]

2006-02-03T01:13:00.000-08:00

[[*never alone...*]]

jus wanted to tell u tat u never alone...i dunno wat to sae or wat to do...budden if there aniting i can help wit plz let mi share wit u kay...take care miss ya lots...yea u QiaNx- [=

[[words unspoken..words unsaid..]]

2006-02-02T04:43:00.000-08:00

[[*words unspoken..words unsaid..*]]

yst game till ard 3am+ den slack abit jus when nthing to do a pop out at top left hand corner thought tat i got some virus all tat hahas budden was someone adding mi in msn...it was sarah
!!! hahas abit unexpected more shocking was adding someone at early in the morning! lol...chatted wit her awhile all tat n kip having connection problem kip signing in n out...after dunno how many times den saw heng on9 too...was veri happi to see him cos he jus back from masia so chated wit him as well...den he ask if i wanted to go his house bai nian(blackjack) den go to another friend house together later on... thought for awhile be4 decided to go...asked vic along budden she have to go visit her grandma at hospital...so after game wit heng wen out straight away at 9am

on the way there in the bus i was trying to sleep n my phone kip ring each time i wanted to fall asleep!!! took bus to woodland den wen to jurong east den change to boon lay den headed to heng house at jurong west!!! lol reached there mit up wit him walk some distance to have breakfast....den heng sae there alot of choice so walk further down n further n end up finally sae let eat mac...lol i been eating fast food 4 time for the 4 days alr!!! reached there ordered alr den sae tat no more breakfast!!! we dragged till is lunch now hahas...after we eaten we headed to his house to bai nian...played some majiong cos his brother friend all tat not arrived yet i not good at it budden is new year lose abit nbm lar...after tat wen to blackjack...i was so tired tat i nearly fall asleep untill i received a msg from her...the content kinda get mi to awake n trying to understand wat she saeing...mayb lacking of sleep too much cant reaili tink straight...heng brother friend all was reaili nice ppl have alot of fun there joking all tat...after tat wen to bukit panjiang there share cab wit heng n his friend...heng wen to his friend there be4 joining us later on...

reached arron house by den most of the friend arrived...chatted all tat den arron offered mi beer i dun wan to drink budden he sae tat all the soft drink all tat finished alr left beer!!! lol first time see tis kinda of situaiton the crowd there was huge cos his relatives were oso there den finally they started to play blackjack lol arron father was so nice hahas n ask us to join in all tat luck there was kinda good hahas den my friend join wit mi den is like each playing 50 cents den saw a "A" hahas wanted to let them tat share to high so ask if the next one was "A" cos i wanted to blackjack n she reply yes...i was like huh not 10 meh den can blackjack it was reaili "A" triple!!! lol first time in the year was reaili fun thou not the $$$ tat i win make mi tat high...the night cont wit the rest of the friend as his relatives started to leave hahas while playing we joked all tat was reiali fun untill i wen to lie down awhile...n ahwile was like the night? mayb cos lack of sleep too much alr...my memory was heng telling mi how much he lost den he told mi again n bided good bye n next ting was BIG BREAKFAST...mac again!!! hahas played awhile ps2 wit the rest budden all was alr like wear out hahas den headed home

took train all tat overshot cos too tired reach home...was suprised to see the windows all tat open mean tat someone at home...saw my mum chated wit her awhile be4 wen to my com to check tings out...nid to sleep be4 i can tink clearly so sleep till night den chatted here n there to make sure i reaili clear minded n witout noticed now is alr like 4.25am

yst saw your sms reaili kinda make mi happi telling mi tat not u dun care is u dunno how to express...sori to make mi feel unimportant...mean i am important??? i never ever tink tat u r heartless...nor i have ever tink tat blaming u wat i feeling rite now...u noe when i am telling u tis seriously i not misleading or wat... sori tat i have not spare enough for your thoughts too...words unspoken...words unsaid... i do reaili wan an answer too n stop assuming too... miss ya

[[idk]]

2006-01-31T03:34:00.000-08:00

[[*idk*]]

i dunno wat actually happening tis past few days hehe...tis new year is kinda diff from the one i use to been spending...tis year kinda feel diff yst chu yi as usual my family n i wen to my father side there to bai nian den sit for awhile chated abit den wen to my mother side there...

reach there was more happening the relatives there are more...after tat wen out met up wit my cousin friend christine...she was a nice person budden after watching the movie she kinda drifted away cos of some problems she have ba...n she actually slapped my forehead...well for ppl tat do it the first time i owaes forgive them...

today wen out as our tradition to watch a movie never eat aniting for breakfast cos dun feel like eating mayb due to de irregular time recently not reaili feeling rite too so skipped breakfast n str8 headed for the 5pm show n have "breakfast" onli after tat show...wen to food republic budden still not open so end up in lucky plaza to have dinner...

christine today was alone in singapore cos her parents wen out she was oso in town so kinda dun feel like going home wit my parents so wen out to mit christine... we wen to city hall there walk walk abit n have a drink so kinda low in mood all tat have some tok untill abt 10+ near 11 n she so random tat she wen to starbuck asking if they hiring n hahas they reaili are doing so... from the tok wit her reaili come to tink of i guess everyone wish someone to noe them...mayb your action all tat trying to show someone to hope they can noe u...n sumtime i too hope there someone tat noe mi too...

reached home wen on9 saw in friendster sumting n hmmm...starting to wonder wat am i to u... i feel like u not treating mi as a good friend kind... budden u oso not treating mi as a suitor ... wat on your mind??? tis few days kinda emo... even watching the 2 movie sumtime so sad till even feel like crying hahas wat is happening rite now!!! wen i am out there doing aniting...i am tinking how u are doing...

[[chu yi...]]

2006-01-30T14:53:00.000-08:00

[[*521000,chu yi...*]]

yoz happi new year guys...yst was new year chu yi...wen to grandpa house at tamp there to bai nian as usual been there have a seat n tok abit cos the ppl there not reaili care one haiz...den wen to grandma house there was everyting was so happening!!! lol reaching there was onli 1 cousin at first n as usual comment on my hair sae so ex n my grandma ask mi if i can wash it away lol...

den more n more ppl arrive soon n the crowd get larger n larger tis year i intend to try sumting tat not been tried be4...we the first batch of ppl tat gamble in my uncle house!!! cos he is like so disagree on the idea....my cousin pei xuan friend christine started wit mi lol...have quite a fun time thou i lost!!! hahas nbm lar btw i found tat my hongbao was diff from my bro i tink my grandpa so bias!!! give my biao mei de hongbao he gave wrongly making mi 40dollar!!! n my bro 20 dollar!!! budden not the $$$ tat i mind jus tat...u noe we all is his grandchildren budden like tat dots...

after tat my cousin sae after tat we all go out christine oso join us at town later on budden i was not reaili keen cos kinda tired oso budden wen there have alot of joke all tat quite fun...hahas my pro cousin actually never brg key n go out so late wit us watched the movie i not stupid too budden is reaili nice lar the show quite touching i actually weep abit lol...after tat stone in the mac down stair awhile be4 all the gurl headed home...we 3 guys all in sengkang decided to take NR6 budden we waited like fools for abt 1 hr be4 bth go take cab den reach home cousin was like in my room so kinda not nice to blog yst so blogged today...

jus be4 i abt to sleep at 4 receive a msg lol another ppl feeling low actually tok to abt 6!!! lol den wen to sleep i 2.30 den wake up today later going to watch movie again lol the whole ting was nice budden noeing some good friend kinda having no program reaili abit sadden mi...well but they have sumting other ppl dun have to cheer them up GARY!!! lol...wondering how u doing rite now everyting as fun as happi???

[[unexpected...]]

2006-01-29T04:02:00.000-08:00

[[*521000,unexpected...*]]

hahas is middle of the night hahas after blogging jus now i wen to game budden my connection seem to b veri unstable kip disconnect so wen to read those msn log i saved...reaili reaili got unexpected finds hahas...wen back to see the tings i tok last time...now i finally noe the impt of puncational(, . ! ? ) dunno how to spell it...now den truly better understand those msg she trying to tell mi...get the meaning better now...n guess wat there sumting i saw in the tok we have the last time " mi : btw i going to abuse tat day , her : wad u mea , mi : the onli day when i can call the shot , mi : abuse my bdae so can ask u out , mi : 1 yr 1 time to abuse onli , her : hahah , her : suree surrree" lol budden u have a 4getful mind...hahas n 1 ting u feel betta n happier can le dun nid feel bad kay [=

[[chinese new year eve...]]

2006-01-29T02:04:00.000-08:00

[[*521000,chinese new year eve...*]]

lol been wondering how to ppl put a title for thier blog now i guess is ez jus add it at the top well now is chinese new year...wake up as usually today budden yst sleep early cos tonight nid to shou ye... shou ye mean tat sleep late so tat parents will have a longer life span...not sure if its true budden no harm believeing it so as usual sleep late tonight...

today in the morning wake up n hang ard be4 leaving to my grandpa house as usual for reunion dinner... wen to msn to chat awhile n game awhile hahas unexpectedly go in a game someone sae wtf gary!...i was like huh hu r u?...end up bryan is in!!! hahas so long never actually tok to him or wat le budden saw him in the game...we chated abit here n there hahas...tok to QiaNx- today hahas kinda disappointed budden its alrite if she feel better tat way...

well tml a new day for the new year dunno how tis new year tis time will turn out to b budden guess will b kinda fun tis year ba...actually have alot of plans hahas budden save it for next time ba...well anione tat is reading my blog should b someone close to mi so happy new year everyone! cya guys soon

[[wEirD...]]

2006-01-25T14:25:00.000-08:00

yst wen to sch as usual cos the lesson was like a 4hrs practical n den u cant miss it type or else u have to make up alot or wat den got a quiz after tat lesson at 1pm...never reaili studied for the quiz n heng alr did so thought i could get some inspirisation from him..budden like he sae he not good in tat he cant even identify the qns!!! hahas so go in not prepared...we sit there for 2hrs acting like we doing the lab budden most of the students were studying for the quiz later on...everyone tat took the quiz kinda sae like a goner...we started the test at abt 3.10 for 25min test mean tat no early dismissal!!! in the middle of the test the teacher stood up look ard n wen to toliet!!! i started to ask"wa teacher tempting us lei..." budden 1 reply from my classmate "no...teacher giving us a chance..." n everyone start toking n asking fliping book n everyting!!! lol...we like tok untill the teacher back n i cant get the ans even i have the book hahas dunno how i score budden heard other class was like 2 pass all fail type...

aftter the test wen to mit my mei at westmall to cut my hair... i wanted to cut , dye n highlight cos i never reaili tried tat be4 n wanted to look better for tat date!!! hahas... reached there mit up wit vic n wen to the salon reach inside tok to the person n she replied mi tat i should not highlight den i told her tat i never tried be4 n see wat the best in the opinion...so she dye n cut n sae okay after tat see wat she can do n do some ting like shoe polishing ting my head like the shoe like tat hahas to make some colour at the tip...n heng reached to mit up n he was like walking behind mi n wanted to go away i called out to him...he was like wa i cant recongise u...den he ask where is vic? lol she beside mi he was like abit stun i guess..chated awhile be4 they sae nid to steam my hair or wat n so heng wen to arcade all tat take a walk...after tat come back n mit us n everyting done...thought vic will b left out cos mi n heng will b going to nic bdae steamboat...he informed us last minutes...

lol budden we still wen reach there crapped like they will all tat n they play blackjack all tat lol....nic n his mother won like 150?!!! everyone a loser there no one surive at most the runner up is never win never lose...n everyone like wen to take a rest like tat i wen to nic bed n lie flat n heard they sae someone is snorning all tat n later on they sae was mi hahas...guess too long never sleep enough alr....wen to eat mac at 4am++ i tink they sae eatting breakfast all tat have the breakfast n i wanted to head home benny been the nice guy insisting to send mi home n thx to his rdie i reach reaili early budden feel reailo bad making him send mi from bukit batok to sengkang den to jurong!!! reaili thx him so much... reach home dun even dare to blog cos if i do so mama will b qns-ing mi how i get home so early??? hahas so wen to sleep be4 heading out later to get my new years clothes...the whole day was fun overall all tat quite enjoyable wit them

too long never reaili get to contact mayb duno wat to sae or wat to do animore budden reaili wanted to mit u or even chat to u...feel so bad tat day i have to hang up cos my mama stressing mi badly to eat dinner...when i lieing in the floor yst at nic house was wondering if u alr asleep...

[[SpRi/\/G Cl3aNinG]]

2006-01-23T01:34:00.000-08:00

yst slept at 5 n today at 10.30 my mother called up she sound kinda diff dunno y so i cont to sleep...den my bro enter my room dun rem actually wat he said budden seem werid y would he come to my room for nthing?...so i rem today was spring cleanning wen out first sence was my father cleanning the windo...felt a kinda of stress in his look...lol...so wen to wash up n rushed my big breakfast...never had such a big breakfast tat i never reaili enjoyed it hahas...den get on wit my work

wen back to my room n start to work tinking y so early so much time aniway budden i started wit my table..clear whole lot of ting...n tings getting more n more..move my table under it was so dirty have to soak chemical...time to time been call out to help oso...getting abit tired budden jus move on n on n more n more junk...in the end tink accidnetly throw sumting tat i wanted to kip one...saded...my mother so cute sae gary later u do tis n tat let your father rest...ask mi to vaccumn so i did...when i lie down n rest she start to mop mean tat she oso tired rite? so i took over lor...at first kinda tink my brother is having ns now is tiring budden he jus play the whole day!!! hahas budden i dun mind lar

wanted to call QiaNx- at 6 cos she off from work budden now come to tink of it aNgie should b accompanying her ba n i abit "dead" from all the work u cant imaging how empty my room is now after mass throwing hahas...tink i reaili tired cant tink reaili straight now nid to get my hair trim all tat...oso nid to get my cny clothes...reaili pressing for time now next week is totally holiday mood totally cant tink of study...planted to wan dye hair wit heng budden i scare mess up hahas cos i wan try to b at my best at tat date hehe...n cny clothes oso reserve for it wahaha...if u ever read everyone tat is reading dun nid get mi prezzie okay? lol i noe thick face budden dun share if there is cos more meaningful thou i owaes tink tat tings tat sae out become unmeaningful animore budden i jus it b special from her...veri happi u still rem the date!!!

[[wondering...]]

2006-01-22T16:43:00.000-08:00

been days seem i blogged...well recently nthing reaili much happen i guess...wen to see doctor few days ago to check if i reaili alrite...in the end everyting i thought there sumting he sae till like so normal...from wed till now wanted to mit QiaNx- for lunch budden wed i go see doc...thurs got miting...be4 fri cant contact her n so i pon tat day too...well so long never see u alr!!! n aNgie too hahas...thur wen to do the oversea tingly wen wit heng to eat pizza first cos i pon the lesson den wen to travel agency to ask ard after tat friday he go malaysia hahas..i tat day we were toking abt compit-ing see hu is faster hahas n using 2 days i have to do sumting tat is outstanding hahas n till sat tink i reaili game too much le hahas sleep too little...holiday mood is too overwhelming i guess as cny is approaching...so much to do yet so little time have to buy my new clothes cut my hair n mayb highlight n dye...today at dinner after long gaming hahas was watching tv n my phone rang so stop my meal n get the phone was tinking hu will b contacting mi hahas for your information i get quite exicted when phone ring cos seldom ppl contact mi ba hahas...was hoping the sms was from her...open up n saw the name thought the sms was not updated budden it was from her!!! hahas read the sms hahas kinda in good mood reaili make my day...thou it was nthing much budden hahas happi =]...hope u can over come the shy n can make it hahas!!!

[[missed...]]

2006-01-15T02:14:00.000-08:00

yst wake up as normal wen to take my more decent shirt(my shirt is veri limited if u noticed...hahas) wen out to sch reaili not in the mood of study since the long long break n tis week is like so many offdays hahas...wen there the teacher started the lecture there listen n getting more n more tired n wake up! cos the lect ended den wen to the next lect hall n repeat the same ting hahas...after tat tings start to get messy quite a few tings to do yet the time not reaili rite...

wen to eat lunch wit nic n thier gang over in clementi...reached there we ordered the drink den ordered from the opposite coffee shop food hahas is like attp...when abt to leave den noticed tat hmmm the drink not paid thou...dun get it how come so many order yet never get us to pay...after tat wen to the arcade all tat to kill some time be4 wen han have to go poly clinic...wen to see how he doing n saw his dad oso we joked along the way all tat n heng called...he actually offered to help mi buy ipod nano!!!...wat shock mi is tat he trust mi wit such a amount of cash...veri happi hahas...wen to mit him after i bought the nano for my brother 21th bdae!...mit heng n his friend all tat n i told him we going to QiaNx- performance!!! budden when reach there den realise the time all tat is too late n i cant make it cos i have a event in the night reaili sori ='[ ...wen there thou budden cant find u...

yeap after tat wen to my friend organise event "supernatural night" or wat suppose to look for ghost!!! budden the whole ting is like telling us how many is fake all tat n alot in the end nth lar...n wen to arron house to stay for the night cos is too late to go home i guess n the n took cab wit heng to his house there den fetch arron n go his house best part? i have a abt flat hp wit the challenge to contact everyone n i wanted to noe the result!!! so cant tok much n sms veri little reached his house his mother was like u have place to sleep n i jus ask for a floor hahas reaili nice ppl n offer mi breakfast all tat thx for it reaili is swt hahas wonder y my parents never call mi...cos phone no batt!!! hahas n wen home reaili late at abt 5+ start leaving reached home n charge phone n reply sms all tat dinner was great n nw waiting for my bro his prezzie hahas

QiaNx- never enter the final dun mean tat u not good kay? jus tat there might b better dancer out there tat y never enter the final...in my hearts u alr won the dance was reaili great...tc n rest well kay...n everyone tc plz the weather not reaili great tc everyone...cos even for now i am like a running tap hahas...n 1 last ting happi bdae bro tink i not reaili hang out wit them or wat budden they my family =]

[[not ritez...]]

2006-01-11T16:56:00.000-08:00

for some reason feel tat tis few days not reaili rite i guess...mayb its from the long holidays n lack of study now sch start dun reaili feel tings rite hahas...been sleeping like at 5 today ba thou is earlier but not reaili helpful i guess hahas...nid to fix back my time to sch timing alr ba...read a blog today n saw a msg tat reaili set mi to tinking...well i reaili hope the blog was not refering to mi...yea budden i guess she rite...sumtime is not tat someone changed budden its abt u finally get to noe someone better...i heard tis be4 from a good friend "sumtime u breakup is onli when u noe tat someone better..." well i tink mayb too much tings is from looking from the outside mayb mayb when sumtime u stop for a moment n u look at the tings u might noitce tat wat u noe might onli b the basic( fu qian )...feel the ppl ard mi abit diff suddenly budden is they feel diff or i noe them better? hahas well another new term n new yr tink a new start too...

[[...ponder...]]

2006-01-10T19:41:00.000-08:00

lots of thoughts in my mind suddenly...now is alr like 7.16am in the morning but reaili wanted to blog be4 sleep...took back result today 1 was like 60 n de other is 72 kinda okay okay mark ba cos not reaili give in so much effort n mistake all over...anyway its over...wen to deli 21th bdae today at east coast bbq...wen to help to carry ting at abt 6 den took cab mit zhe rong down to ecp...reached there at first started to help out budden jus abit lazy in the end they played alot all tat n i like been push down from the "bed" den after tat i lie down alone looking up the the purple sky...starting to daydream all tat...den han walk up to mi n asked if everyting was alrite? i was tinking if she reaili tink i am angry becos of tat prank they did?...do i reaili seem so petty to b upset jus for tat...the feeling of thought someone noe u is so happi budden when in the end the person u thought tat noe u might not understand u a single abit at all...han was wit her boyfriend wei hua today well they seem getting along veri well mayb tat when i reaili start to dream n jus b there alone...she came n asked y i never joined the other group...jus to mention the celebration i was like noe last minute too cos they happen to sae infront of mi den like o 4get to ask u go...i noe it might b like jus slip off the mind not reaili trying to kick a fuss out of it when han asked mi y i so negative...well i guess mayb looking at everyone been so happi n in the mist of it realised tat i not reaili tat happi sumtime...reaili is envious...the couples been swt there n friends there do they even realise tat i been not myself? later on they tok veri happi all tat n i find no seat when to take a seat the the beach alone wit a deck of playing cards well seated there n relac i guess watch the sky n tink...to a certain extend no one like noticed my precesence...den heng walked to mi n ask y i siting there alone...actually tat kinda feel good cos he is reaili someone tat i tink i am close to chated awhile be4 his friends join in n we wen to play cards...after playing cards i left wit heng n his friend for a movie since the group of ppl left there were abit in thier own world...wen to watch movie n cos i stay in sengkang dun wan trouble his friend sending mi home at 5 start walking to ps reached there the first train is like 6.29 sat there n sms wit heng all tat n it started to rain...it was beautiful mayb all tis make mi start to ponder on everyting n on the way alone walking in the street was like the whole walk onli abt 3 ppl walking ard? U noe there tings i dun understand at times...when someone sae for now u do all tat cos u like mi budden the day when your feeling die u dun do all tis swt tings animore...but have u ever y he stop doing all those tings tat u sae he will stop doing? cos he noe tat u will not accept his love n by continue to do so jus make u dun feel good ,since nthing going to come out of it y not stop it...but hu will tink tat way...ppl jus sae u have a change of heart...when a gurl interested in tat guy and de guy sae"i willing to change for u..." the gurl felt so touch...budden when the gurl dunno like the guy she will reply"u dun nid change for mi for everyone is special in thier own way"...when the gurl demend from the guy she like "cant u change for mi?"...i noe it mayb sound kinda no meaning to u ppl budden dunno y i suddenly tink how come everyting ppl ard been saeing they onli tink from thier side...mayb i lacking of too much sleep n getting more n more retard...WHERE IS EVERYONE TAT I WAN TO CONTACT!!!...U noe whenever i sae tings like i miss u...i reaili miss u

[[hope...]]

2006-01-09T02:32:00.000-08:00

sumtime i jus hope the person u speaking of is mi...budden hahas jus ended up my guess is correct...not mi...hmmm...common test ended alr now dunno wat to do kinda like lost in the middle of no where hahas mayb after the holiday mood den school reaili going to start...kinda missing some of my close friend tat been lost contact all some tat is too bz...well sumtimes reaili hope i noe wat on your mind...

[[NRA ROX]]

2006-01-08T06:27:00.000-08:00

hmm its 5.30 now alr hahas budden wanted to blog today be4 i sleep quite happening day...been having exam so not blog or wat lately...last paper on friday n cant seem to concentrate to studiee well enough so decided not to sleep budden sleep for 1.5hrs in the end hahas...wen to sch next to study again wit heng n like usual eat n read past yr paper n crapped...well hahas lack of sleep recently sumtime kinda slow...my best sec friend yi wei came to my house set the router for mi hahas be4 he left he ask mi where my fish wen to tis make mi realise tat he not been to my house since like ages hahas after he left i am so tired tat i jus fell asleep at the living room last sence was my mama at the room walking ard asking mi to go sleep...when i open my eyes 2 more times is my dad at the dinning table alr hahas n time sure pass veri fast...woke up n eat my dinner decided to make up for the lost gaming tat i never gamed hahas budden my connection start to get "faster" after i upgrade is...owaes got disconnected n worst cant even go msn or wat so everyting screw up...budden its fine since i nid to sleep early for sat n its alr like 3am watching tv hahas

sat!!! woke up at 8 since i not sure how long am i going to take to reach NUS...hmmm...n sure dun wan to b late so decided to take the cab down from dover...n realise i quite early reach dover so wanted to go sp mac for breakast! hahas but guess wat they dun sell breakfast...zZz...so no choice start to take cab down to NUS n was like scare tat uncle get the wrong location budden end up rite reached there was like abt near 10 onli? or somewhere near there hahas took a seat to rest first since everyting is still like under preparation on the way saw xuen feng hahas was practising so never go call him jus seat there...watched the diff groups rehearse n was all like slacking hahas mayb dun wan show too much of the dance yet...onli 1 group i tink tat i saw was enthu...n finally the show get started!!! the comp start off wit xuen feng group "LIL BRATZ" at first like was like wat i saw nthing much but as the dance go on it jus get better n better! hahas reaili was impressed tinking hmmm wit tis kinda of performance sure can get in hahas...watched the different groups later on n on n on n notice 1 ting not onli they r prepared others team oso came well prepared too reaili den find there reaili strong comp going on among there hahas was interesting n nice lar den after xuen feng noticed mi he came sit down wit mi n chatted awhile hahas kinda nice of him...cos we onli crap n dun tok mostly hahas...n he asked mi how his team performed? i joke wit him in compare to those MTV? he actually reply ya...hahas...i told him was nice budden he was like no of confidance of thier performance...seem veri soon they announce the break start i heard was like 12.15 den was abt 50 minutes away form part 2 dunno the campus so feared tat finding some ting to eat will b hard n return at the time...so slack there sit in the seat n see everyting ard mi..different groups preparing n reheasre again for the part 2 one...den receive a sms from QiaNx- hahas thought she alr arrived budden she sae she jus onli start to come from school!!! cos there a person from nra tat i tink look quite alike her hahas

so meanwhile for the break QiaNx- reached hehe budden i was like sitting somewhere sort of alone at the top cos the break...she saw mi n waved! hahas n came to chat wit mi ABIT(lolx...) n wen back to prepare...i notice the time was like abt 12.15 n well the show going to start soon but guess wat there still so many team never get to rehearse yet n QiaNx- came again wit her red bull tis time n chated abit more n nid to go off again for the make up...hehe...den i tink i make a mistake is 12.50 not 12.15!!! anyway alr tat time after the reheasre...so part 2 started i move from my seat to the centre there to have a clearer look the dance from all the teams was unquie in thier own way budden some was reaili so nice till like sure winner...n finally "DANCE BATTALION!!!"(is BATTALION...hehe) the starting was so so cute! hahas everyone is like cheered till high hahas was reaili great the dance follow on by tat was oso nice overall is NICE!!! budden the last part hahas can see abit lack of coordinatation cos every tings seem abit messy...hehe...onli to noe tat the last part was jus fixed a day ago? lolx...thou its was tat case the performance to mi in compare can see seen as a sure winner too...after the dance by DANCE BATTALION!!! i continue standing there watching den QiaNx- came n asked mi to join her wit her group was kinda werid ba hahas cos i like alien all of a sudden hahas chated wit her abit all tat n watched the performance...budden she nid to leave early back to sch for practise for the 7pm opening item later on...so bidded goodbye n i seat there to watch n seeing wat is the result...watched for awhile be4 QiaNx- appear again hahas she sae she not leaving yet cos intended to stay till the result is out...n intro mi to joanna bf jeremy...never tok much too n there she wen to await the result...the teams was called one by one hu entered the semi 1 group by 1 group at first was like coming rite up budden it kip wen on n on...even i abit nervous when they sae last 3 group i was like i so wrong to sae sure win? hahas n tinking will she cry? wat to sae to make her feel better? DANCE BATTALION!!! is the next ting i heard from the semi teams! hahas...n last team to b in semi from np oso all teams from NP made it well kinda impressive...QiaNx- sae she heading down to taka straight so i bidded goodbye n wen to washroom saw the bus 151 but heard from xuen feng 154 straight away reach...so never chase...guess wat? THERE NO 154! SO WAT IT REACH hahas...den saw QiaNx-, sarah, skye walk down the coach tat suppose to brg them to taka den after a while poof they jus heading to the bus stop hahas...QiaNx- sae she taking the bus down to sch to collect tings for the dance group so taking 151 n i b taking tat too den hahas kinda werid lar cos the 3 gurls tok den i abit out of point? hahas n mayb tired more quiet feel abit different so decided to head to town myself first...reach town wen to eat my breakfast(first meal) hahas was so hungry till not hungry...wen ard windo shop n see lanshop games...

i noe tis is too long u might wan to stop hahas (btw to the one tat sae after u done wit your ting u will call mi n btw i still waiting for tat call!!!)

after tat received a call from nic sae miting for dinner so waited for him n i watch ppl game n met him kinda dun wan hurry him to eat cos the show start at 7 den he sae go arcade n guess wat finally when on the way i heard the music!!! i noe i missed some part alr den hahas budden luckily is tat part tat i watch at afternoon n watched finsihed nic sae find xuen feng budden he mia-ed saw QiaNx- instead but she is appearing so bz so left first since we saw chen wen n heard yong chun in town...wen to mit them thou i dunno y i miting them oso hahas...they sae go see firecracker in chinatown so followed along reached there was rainning n moving ard the crowd abt to die like tat den guess wat it wen off we been blocked cant see firework cant see aniting onli a drip n a lcd display firework n we leaving chinatown! argh... wen to clark quak for mac? too much mac lately den dunno y they suggest drink den sing all tat end up go drink go in n sing n drink n police came! hahas took ic copy down all tat will abt 3 we left quite fun over there...wen to supper n den left for home nightrider! n reached home was like rainning so "showered" a little be4 i shower at home again n they sae play games hahas got dced so now after everyting bath n all is like 6.12 abt 22hr13minutes i been staying awake after serious lacking of sleep! haahs best of all? the time still running now!

the day was great overall esp the dance part...now i see movement i tink of dance all those moves i saw today hahas simply rOx!!! well QiaNx- dunno y kip sae sori? hahas i reaili enjoyed myself from all the performance n like i sae i make time to see u! hahas [=

[[happi!!!]]

2006-01-03T02:25:00.000-08:00

hmm...supposely told my parents today not going out to beach road(dunno how to spell) budden told them last minute i going to sch to study...hahas...woke up early so tat i can revise n have abit more time to eat oso...on the way to sch study at the bus so tat i noe wat to ans later!!! hahas

reach kap eat my lunch cos doubt sch will b selling anyting anyway so abt to reach there i called angie finally is like 20% of the call she pick up! hahas tok wit her den find out she not coming today n sae like she alr told QiaNx- budden in the end was like QiaNx- sae angie never sae!!! chat wit angie on the way to sch cos is like actually long time never reaili see n chat wit her...hahas we tok more n more jue den seat down in like in atrium n saw andy! hahas...den i sae out "hey andy! going where? thought we miting angie?" hahas like expected cos i alr noe she not coming n andy dunno angie is on the line hahas kinda fun budden for some reason got hang up n is sae to b MY FAULT...hahas

after tat wen explore wit andy n find tat dance studio n saw QiaNx- hahas...she asked us to go in to have a seat budden felt werid cos all is like /\/ra ppl? but still wen in so tat she can do her ting while not feeling gulity cos she kip saeing sori for been late hahas...watch them dance all tat is reaili nice lar hahas n QiaNx- i might not b good in tis budden u look reaili great doing it [=

after waiting all tat her sister stella came n passed her some stuff tat she 4got to brg...hahas den wen downstair to study since everywhere is like occupy settle down there her sister stella so cute hahas seating there writing tings n saw it was like a name list...hahas asked her if she reaili bored n she answered "yea" hahas she was there doing her ting n i there doing abt the same ting nth...hahas cos QiaNx- kinda got a better mentor to teach her hahas den seat there stare at blanks n saw andy n told him...actually ask mi is faster hahas...so teached him aniting tat i still can b sure wit...after tat they order KFC(decent meal...lolx) but i was like not hungry

after there slacking all day the KFC arrived n they wen to collect n send to thier friend tat still at dance studio oso...chated wit bryan more ba cos we there like doing nthing much...hahas after tat wen to game abit for someone tat like luffing at mi arghhhh... budden got a great victory! n they like ARGH!!! hahas wen home nid to walk all the way to take bus be4 leaving heng called mi hahas we chatted like damm high wahaha den he finally hang up n i msg QiaNx- hahas when wanted to call her batt wen flat so called her the moment i reach home hahas...a nice day overall get to see her n tok to her more too wahahah [=

2005-12-31T23:59:00.000-08:00

hmm...the last day for the yr alr...a year passed so fast like a blink of eye...tis yr reaili have been happening i guess...noe quit alot of ppl in the yr n alot happned too hahas...noe ppl more deeply n been through more tings n learn alot of ting..

today sleep like usually budden kinda feel like going to countdown at chinese garden tonight...cos she b having a dance over there...kinda not sure if should go cos she tat time sae hope her friends all tat can support budden yst dun get to tok to her...n never replied my msg today...reaili wanted to "torture" her wit crystal jade porridge(spelling wrong?)..but no reply so not sure..

at night receive a call from my sec friend martin wanted to mit at compasspoint budden end up at puggol park cos my friend working there too so can mit the 2 of them at the same time i guess wen there he oreder a drink n finger food so i jus followed wat he ordered hahas have quite a tok on alot of ting hahas n msg wit her cfm tat cant make it in time for the show i guess she kinda sae dun nid la in the end...so never go in the end...

reach home now alr n the final post for the yr n everyting is like nthing much happening cos alot of ppl celebrating tis new yr eve wit thier friends or someone speical i guess hahas next minute is the new yr changing abit ba do the tings tat i wanted to all the time n b more hardworking! haahs hope tings turn out well for the following yr for everyone i care for n esp her hahas [=

[[late night???]]

2005-12-30T16:55:00.000-08:00

well guess is reaili late now hahas jus finish a game tink i starting to noe how i can reaili study found tis superb method today jus mi my book n my bed...woke up early in the morning cos my phone rang thought hu msg mi cos the tone wishing how well if was from her? hahas...guess wat...its reaili from her!!! hahas saw the msg by her kinda thought sae wrongly cos when woke up i am like hopeless den cfm the msg was by her asking mi if i wan to go to sch study together

i reaili reaili wanted to budden cant cos for some reason i yst told my mother i will b at home...='[ oso wit her other 2 friends tat i tink i dunno kinda werid too...hahas...so cont to sleep till late den woke up...wen to get lunch cos been missing lunch for so long alr n dun feel good taking pocket money but not using hahas... after lunch wen back did game quite alot to b honest budden there a period of time like from 8 to 9 i did few the time pass veri slowly n i absorbing alot tink the trick is off from the world jus mi n book n bed hahas

at night wen to chk on her blog each time i on my IE as owaes n saw her post n msn when i out of my game...sry didnt reply u...n dun nid sae sry for not replying mi too kay? n stay happi n smile more [= yea i was toking abt QiaNx-

[[* [= *]]

2005-12-28T03:39:00.000-08:00

wake up early today wanted to start my studiee!!! yeap not been touching my book since like the last day of school hahas...get started by struggling in my bed all tat den finally wake up on com den abit slack here n there not reaili much touched it...den tok to someone tat reaili spoil my mood for the day someone so proud but he is too insignicficant to b mention so jus skip tat jerk

next ting was started abit study n still veri lac cant seem to rem how to study since such a long break...hahas here ask for game there ask for game too much for mi to take it!...den wen to take a nap cos not reaili been sleeping well tis few days...wake up den wen to get dinner for my papa n mi wen down stair den realise it started rainning...too lazy to go out close the windo den come down jus make it fast den wen back home slack watch tv n study abit more...den wen to trash someone tat is so proud...arrrr

guess the best part of the day was at 1 hahas wen back to desktop after the game see my msn saw QiaNx- hahas....thought she will b like sleeping soon? so drop by to ask how her day...hahas we kip on toking n toking n toking...noe more abt her all tat n everyting...part of it quite discourging but well reaili reaili enjoyed the tok...for like 2+hrs! hahas...actually i lacking of sleep badly i guess budden jus so high tat i tink i blog be4 i sleep a good day for mi...1 ting reaili reaili happi tat u love the gift [=

[[christmas]]

2005-12-26T02:46:00.000-08:00

wake up like usally at 12+ den wen back to sleep till abt 2+ den cos the time not veri rite wen to my bro room have a chat wit him...next wen out to get my gif for QiaNx...took the train budden like abit fall asleep in there cant decide if tat the one she like n wat the size...wen to heeren there to the adidas shop abit shy cos buying female one hahas den waited for the Q to shorten den wen to apporach a female sale assitance...i told her hmm the size cant change? since its a discount item den tell her the description n ask her wat the size should b budden she sae in last wat size u wan?...lol...i tink n tink guess is like L ba since she like sae be4...got the prezzie n wen ard to shop for aNgie budden cant reaili tink of sumting cos she die die wan my doggie onli?...n someone sae be4 tat one got meaning de so dun dare give...hahas...finally thought of wat to give budden cant make it to give on tat veri day wen to city link there pass asian kitchen saw QiaNx n aNgie...den called again to my mei to ask her where is she met her up den wen walking in ms a while be4 mitting QiaNx they all...my mei(vic) kinda wan see QiaNx so brought her along tat y i am LATE hahas wen there pass the prezzie tok awhile den wen to vic n her gang over there they was like oso heading home since vic nid to b home in time to eat dinner after tat start walking slowly to mrt station cos be4 tat was like ruhsing everyone to run there hahas...reach there vic sae someone called my name...hahas saw QiaNx n angie again hahas tok to them abit more den rush to the train cos my grandma today coming to our house hahas...reach home as expected all was like stay in my room to play game i kinda tired lar budden reaili happi today cos she like my prezzie!!!...the night was high not cos wat happened to U okay budden u like the gift a veri happi christmas after tis few boring day hahas [=

[[ChrIsTmAs,eve]]

2005-12-24T03:09:00.000-08:00

its actually christmas eve today n i doing nhting i guess...well guess everyone doing thier celebratation now in some way or wat i guess...hmm yst wen to sentosa wit nic they all hahas mit at 9 in the morning budden when i reach there was like no ppl wanted to call arron tat invited mi budden dun have his number...so called nic budden no ans...alr super tired cos never sleep for a day alr in train was wondering y tat lady like give looking at mi den realise my shirt abit wet tink i drool while sleeping...hahas...waited there finally nic reply called arron he jus left not long ago n my call to nic is a morning call? hahas mean will b reaili waiting for everyone alr den i waited n saw my classmate tat oso going so waited wit him till abt quite some time later nic came n thier friend den we wen to hb mac for breakfast....reach there settle down n ate our breakfast untill 10.30 den everyone came cos actually wanted to mit tat time budden they sae cant later too late n end up still there...so wen to sentosa to play volleyball at first hahas kinda fun budden no sun n abit ranning den took a dip at the water n wen to bath...they sae eat sushi buffet wen there eat from 3+ -6 den marco join us hahas eat eat eat n still eating at some point from eating reaili felt so tired to nearly doze off...den nic they all wen to brg marco in n we wen into the room...the room kinda big lar n can lie there slack n everyting cos ppl dun see us in there hahas joke abit here n there all tat den wen to take the ludge ride? hahas took the like chair ting tat brg us up dunno wat tat call like those when u go skil-ing took the ride so fun hahas at first kinda competition wen the guys r infront all tat choing all tat hahas was like challenging benny n toking while running down the course de second time everyone was like dun care the ride up dun feel tat scary animore jus wanted to take the go kart down hahas was tis time wit arron n benny crash my kart jus for fun hahas den arron die die wan win dun give way make mi go nearly out of it hahas budden was fun lar wen down to town after tat lifen wanted to get some perfume ting or wat den they xchange christmas gift all tat...after tat wen wit benny n arron to shop for benny gf christmas gift hahas wen to pacific plaza for fossil budden alr close up den they use the cd shop from lvl 2 hahas budden got caught be4 we can use so wen to hereen the whole street was so pack den was like running n evading the crowd...abt to reach i sae y not take on the roads hahas we run on the road after tat reach veri soon the shop not close yet hahas kinda happi lar cos benny wanted to get it quite badly by yst after shopping ard few watch shop found 1 tat he tink is nice the shop alr like closed all tat...den dun wan to trouble him i took train home the train station was like 1/2 was ppl when i look down in it...nid to rush home badly cos not submit my work n is due in like 1+hrs later!...finally reach home kinda on com do the work met some problem budden in time was so tired from everyting even to move finally at abt 12+ all tat den can move to bath n eat dinner? lol yea dinner i mean dunno y suddenly can eat again n clear quite alot....kinda retard from lack of sleep i tink budden 1 itng the view when took the ting up was reaili nice hahas n second miss the chance to get prezzie for her again ARGH tml i shall buy n gift hahas tat abt all i guess spending christmas like tat hahas...

||hmmm||

2005-12-22T03:10:00.000-08:00

was waiting for reply budden jus wen off9-ed...

[[school]]

2005-12-21T03:34:00.000-08:00

another day of sch for mi n oso the last day...after school suppose to mit my mei for my christmas prezzie n den oso bryan for lunch....after tat nid to cut my hair n rush back to sch for gl tranning...jus after i told my classmate my whole day timetable i receive a sms...my mei sae she gastric tml den mit i was like okay den nbm...after tat the phone ring again i thought he reply my msg budden it was nic saeing sian lar dun go...okay...den ended up the day wit i go sch for the boring lesson n go cut hair at bukit batok alone!!! hahas took bus wit joe n crap wit him along the way wen down there even the hair stylist was like u lack of sleep? your eyes seem abit sore...hahas not exactly been living normally for few days alr...reach home play computer games like usual might sae i petty or wat budden someone tat been so mean last time finally get back to him...hahas...tml going out again to take my prezzie n also buying sumting... the whole day was quite fun lar hahas get to chat wit heng after he return from malaysia in game thou hahas...wanted to call QiaNx-(yea...u!) budden she in a chalet lar hahas so untill she more free hahas...mayb lacking of sleep make mi abit retard n high especially when 2 such ppl mit...wahaha

[[christmas party]]

2005-12-17T23:59:00.000-08:00

holiday sort of like started alr even thou is call study break 2 week for the first time tink onli will b using 1 week for study ba but well reaili nid to catch up wit work all tat...kinda nthing happening recently onli yst the christmas party at first i told heng since they so early celebrate the christmas ting hahas y not celebrate cny mooncake n everyting in 1 shot hahas... starting was helping to pump the ballon ended up pump till like nearly grow bristle...hmm...the ppl there some was like kinda saeing stop toking start working when they onli do the mouth work while we been doing the hand work...i kinda tired too from the balloons so they told mi to go to the back wit heng to deco...the tings given was reaili challenging all diff length all tat well after some work look reiali great budden there is a empty slot we kinda bored so wanted to put a "xi" in tat christmas party....hahas...yea kinda on doing untill 1 stupid member there mumbleing till a teacher come to us den we was trying to act blur saeing it was another a face of santa or wat hahas... the whole party kinda relac jus sit down watching lar dun reaili go motivate the crowd cos will b like blocking thier view an xcuse to jus rest...and after those performace come de buffet dinner den play wit the snow spray hahas there onli 3 can...heng n mi alr took 2 we kinda spray anyone hahas den the lecturer sae again later dirty ask us to clean alr explain tat it will evaporate budden he dunno dun understand or wat dun care jus cont the fun till quite late den headed home cant sleep kip enjoying the view untill awhile abit tired dozed off wake up overslept by 1 station den take another route hm...kinda in a relac mode now 2 weeks afterall hahas...was fun afterall n enjoyable

*wnedta clla tsi dya seh to bz raliie to hre my jyo atb tlle wnedta hiza be seme btu fwe hre to

[[BoRed]]

2005-12-14T15:27:00.000-08:00

have a tons of dreams kip sleeping till 1+ when seem like i have alr sleep alot...but well tat kinda good mean more time to spend...wake up by den went to try maple again cos heng sae jus try it see if like it but well fated ba i guess the game kip dc mi for no reason...den my mother not working today cos kinda injury her hand at work so she bought mi lunch den have my lunch n back to my com

nid to study for tml test kinda heavy weightage budden not started yet yst nigt having a bad flu den today the head abit not rite too any amount of sleep dun seem to b enough for mi...read my tag box n saw aNgie msg n kinda reflect back...a...aNgie u lie!!! hahas your soon seem far from now...yst night tok to QiaNx- in msn hahas kinda fast reply from her hahas from wat she sae "liking sumone dun realli mean u muz haf her or him mah rite" hmm kinda consoleing words ba...sudden have tis thought is true of wat she sae budden is even better to b able to share your happiness n everyting wit someone speical so jus kip waiting might have a change? hahas stubborn u may call budden nbm be4 someone in her blog nag abt kip toking tis kinda of ting yeah?...well nthing much for now onli studying ba i guess...

\\found//

2005-12-10T09:26:00.000-08:00

today stay at home sleep till veri late nthing much to do oso...lazy to go to hougang for the replacement for the ez link...the hole day nthing much happen untill when i having dinner at 9+ i receive a call the person voice was unfamiliar all tat onli to find tat he ask mi if i lost my wallet... hahas ended up the wallet was found to b at punggol bus station wen down to take after my dinner n chated wit my bro as he accompany mi to take nthing much for the day jus tat unexpected return...n finally today got the chance to speak to her hahas kinda happo =]

\\bad day...//

2005-12-09T22:20:00.000-08:00

today wake up as usual den pack my back lenting my com to my friend yi wei, took bus 136 cos miting him den i abit like fall asleep budden sumting touch my leg a guy like there mumbling sumting i dun care much abt him n back to the sleep...when i abt to do down the bus he there mumbling again i turn ard n look at him he like look at other place..den cross the overhead bridge n find sumting not rite reach the stop pass the lappy to yi wei n luff at his harddisk spoil when abt to go up the bus my wallet gone...put down my tings ask him look after n run back to the bus stop...nthing to b found haiz den tink mayb wat tat guy mumbling was my wallet! so lent 4dollar n went to the hougang bus interchange den after asking all tat wen to amk interchange reach there the person in the control room was like heck care...he ask when was it lost i sae tis morning he sae den nthing is reported n cont his ting i waited for my bus den tink if i can report he sae if wan den pass mi the book...headed home den reach home put down my tings get passport n bankbook go report police...the police sae dun nid to report jus go straight for replacement den waited for 11 to void my posb card n remake...wen home n sleep after den my dad was like y not report wat if loanshark cum after if ppl use it for loans...i told him police dun have connection wit loanshark so not point he kinda like shouting at mi where i dun understand cos not i dun wan the police dun write! haiz kinda overall a bad bad day give school a miss dun even can take a bus to it wanted to call but my phone left 1 drip of batt n guess everyone is schooling or bz wit thier stuff ba

*railie tat can tok mi tdyao wit lkei you hpeo

\\bo-leng, "CNY"//

2005-12-08T01:52:00.000-08:00

Today suppose to mit benny they all for bo-leng session but kinda woke up abit late cos the alarm clock was slow for 2 hrs dunno y.... receive a call at abt 12 from wen han he told mi the time n i like WA...den i rush to bath n wen out thought will b veri late budden when i reaching i call again they not at the station yet n i am like not late from sengkang to BBDC tat area n someone tat live ard there i earlier while i woke up later???...hahas si after tat took shawn car to ceda there for bo-leng session kinda fun lar there luffing at other ppl while they "cleaning" the lane n been luff when u get the chance to "clean" the lane . Hahas kinda fun lar thou we onli have 2 game den after tat decided to go choing buffet at westmall budden alr 4.05 by den? den dunno hu the other group of friend here tink there tink but we jus head toward westmall when we reach there dun care so much jus go in the time left was like 45 minutes the buffet session was damm fun we order like the least of each kind is 6 n some 10 serving kip order n luff cos the food getting more n more den other table tat cant clear pass to us hahas kip ordering n making fun here n there....after tat they was saeing going to arron(not sure the spelling) house...when we reach there we wen into his house den is like his sister cuming home mi n xuan feng dunno wat to call her onli to find out tat his mother! lol... arron wen to buy playing cards n drinks all tat den we started our little card playing session n majong....at first jus play for dun den xin ai dunno y so high sae da lu er play cash den xuan feng sae play other so we started blackjack xin ai sae wan b banker??? her luck is damm well n kip winning den the majong stopped n join us benny cum throw in $20 share banker they kip winning n den mass losing everyone is like sudden win n sudden lost...hahas the whole ting kip draggin on n on n on kip making fun while we playing hahas...at ard 10 i nid to go so wanted to bid goodbye den benny sae tat he give mi a ride home...thx to his ride i can stay out later den play more n more till 12+ den started to leave is like we having chinese new yrs lol...took benny ride home damm fast he drive but u dun feel dangerous if not wrong hahas he den go bit ard sengkang den cum my house use the washroom n headed home...felt so bad jurong there was rainning heavily there wanted to lend him a jacket but he refuse felt so bad but reaili appericate the ride kinda fun...hahas reach home alr quite late but thx to the ride was damm fast...the whole day wit the gang is damm fun hahas enjoyed

\\ moodless //

2005-12-06T07:29:00.000-08:00

Today after school bryan told mi to accompany him n nic to BBDC but i told him no cos i helping si yan to move house so after school from 4 i start to wait at canteen 2....sited there n play abit games but stop when abt 5 cos will b leaving ani moment...at first still tink tat mayb late abit den the time kip passing n passing abit lazy to move oso so never call her jus waiting for the call...den the phone rang...budden it was other ppl so i abit relief cos can slack hahas so wen on n on n on till 7 when the fans all tat jus switch off in canteen 2...make a call in the end no one pick up so nbm wen home mum sae tonight dinner settle myself i sae okay den cum to tink of it not enough money to even buy a packet of rice but all tis not reaili irriated mi so i jus make my way home kinda not bothered by anyting much dunno y too...den call her again at hougang bus stop she yelled sae I NEVER CONTACT HER...when she reply my msg earlier on after some tok den sae o....tat msg was from u icic... so tat how the day goes...

\\* LSTO *//

2005-12-04T00:03:00.000-08:00

kinda lost now since reading tat coded msg....dunno wat to do now...wen to game but oso kinda no mood to do so...feel like finding someone to chat with either sleeping or wat...so started my revision tat i oso dun understand y i will do tat... start flipping my book but still cant reaili concentrate so wen to blog...all along been dreaming of someone like tis n now i met her...but how tings will work out? i reaili have no idea...

*dnonu on mndi now aognl lkei her i bdendu sae cnta all ,wat ralilie of do sadnt cacenh b her? hpeo fele fro mi aitb she ralolie wit to a i mi tnki she tat cmitmo she she fele how tlignle fele all rtei her wat

testing

2005-11-25T00:33:00.000-08:00

//* shian *\\

2005-10-03T01:27:00.000-07:00

today wen to hb to mit qianx for the blog tingly due to the last time no connection at clementi at then....budden hb mc oso no connection? so we decided to play safe go to the westmall one for the connection...upon reaching there still no connection to be connected...then beside us was another table got two ppl came. they open up their lappy qianx still not saw tat yet tat when i noe i am dead cos after awhile they get connected n on9. ended up tink is my com cannot find get any connection cos com problem i guess. then wen to the westmall inside to eat n game. the whole day was fun n enjoyable hope more shian session coming up!

2005-09-26T09:44:00.000-07:00

testing!

FiRsT

2005-09-26T08:33:00.000-07:00

sPeCiaL Me/\/ti0/\/ t0 QiaNx- f0R sEtTiNg uP tHe bL0G!! [=

::s|-|e/\/g Re/\/x-::

[[*no eye deer*]]

[[**]]

[[*over*]]

[[*s...i...c.....k*]]

[[*chimiology*]]

[[*tired...*]]

[[*time*]]

[[*stun*]]

[[*trust?*]]

[[*alien*]]

[[*idiot*]]

[[*sad...*]]

[[*holis*]]

[[*bLog*]]

[[*wHaT hAePPe/\/inG?*]]

[[*life...*]]

-=inspired=-

[[*perfection???*]]

[[*good day...*]]

[[*tired...*]]

[[*hApPiE bDa3*]]

[[*bz wit nth....*]]

[[*delicated for u...*]]

[[*unhappi*]]

[[* @#$i%^&d*()k_+*]]

[[*did it slip off yr mind...*]]

[[*whInE//WhiNe//whINE*]]

[[*aFteRmaTh*]]

[[*ExAms*]]

[[*tHouGhts...*]]

[[* [= *]]

[[*vdae...*]]

[[*dreamz...*]]

[[*wear out...*]]

[[*buRFday*]]

[[*bdae...*]]

[[*open house...steamboat*]]

[[*never alone...*]]

[[*words unspoken..words unsaid..*]]

[[*idk*]]

[[*chu yi...*]]

[[*unexpected...*]]

[[*chinese new year eve...*]]

[[*wEirD...*]]

[[*SpRi/\/G Cl3aNinG*]]

[[*wondering...*]]

[[*missed...*]]

[[*not ritez...*]]

[[*...ponder...*]]

[[*hope...*]]

[[*NRA ROX*]]

[[*happi!!!*]]

[[*late night???*]]

[[* [= *]]

[[*christmas*]]

[[*ChrIsTmAs,eve*]]

||*hmmm*||

[[*school*]]

[[*christmas party*]]

[[*BoRed*]]

\\*found*//

\\*bad day...*//

\\*bo-leng, "CNY"*//

*\\ moodless //*

\\* LSTO *//

testing

//* shian *\\

FiRsT

[[no eye deer]]

[[over]]

[[s...i...c.....k]]

[[chimiology]]

[[tired...]]

[[time]]

[[stun]]

[[trust?]]

[[alien]]

[[idiot]]

[[sad...]]

[[holis]]

[[bLog]]

[[wHaT hAePPe/\/inG?]]

[[life...]]

[[perfection???]]

[[good day...]]

[[tired...]]

[[hApPiE bDa3]]

[[bz wit nth....]]

[[delicated for u...]]

[[unhappi]]

[[* @#$i%^&d()k_+]]

[[did it slip off yr mind...]]

[[whInE//WhiNe//whINE]]

[[aFteRmaTh]]

[[ExAms]]

[[tHouGhts...]]

[[vdae...]]

[[dreamz...]]

[[wear out...]]

[[buRFday]]

[[bdae...]]

[[open house...steamboat]]

[[never alone...]]

[[words unspoken..words unsaid..]]

[[idk]]

[[chu yi...]]

[[unexpected...]]

[[chinese new year eve...]]

[[wEirD...]]

[[SpRi/\/G Cl3aNinG]]

[[wondering...]]

[[missed...]]

[[not ritez...]]

[[...ponder...]]

[[hope...]]

[[NRA ROX]]

[[happi!!!]]

[[late night???]]

[[christmas]]

[[ChrIsTmAs,eve]]

||hmmm||

[[school]]

[[christmas party]]

[[BoRed]]

\\found//

\\bad day...//

\\bo-leng, "CNY"//

\\ moodless //